whatever suits the narrative XD

bonus points: he fixed it up from the dump 😄

I headcanon horrortale!BP (without reading the source, i might add) is simply named Tarrare (iykyk)

Dean ran so Sans didn't have to walk 🤣

Ty sweets 🫠👍

thank 🫣🫠👍

anyone who approaches meets his fierce glare, the overwhelming aura of a mage restrained, trying to feed the tether between them to keep Cross from dipping into the abyss. Cross is alive, but just holding on out of pure devotion, & Epic will never forgive himself for taking such a risk with his life

finally, Epic collapses behind one of their tents, dragging Cross over his body and clinging to him fiercely, apologising, finally letting go and letting the tears flow...

imagine a suddenly nerfed!Epic having to drag Cross out of harm's way, fiercely holding onto him and trying to blink away the tears that gather at his sockets!! and he's so so so scared because if *he* dies then Cross WILL definitely follow, so he has to protect him!! but he's unarmed!!

thinking about an AU where mage!Epic drains well!Cross so badly of magic in the heat of battle that Cross faints and Epic is like. oh fuck. oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck. because with Cross, he can't magic, and without Cross, he'll perish, but also, without Cross, he'll die of a broken heart 🥺🥹🙏👀🤲

actually i have decided in my brain that crossmare is better suited to this (due to Nightmare's canon ability to syphon negative energy from peeps, and Cross is ungodly dutiful to any simp he lays eyes on 🤲)

OR CROSSMARE WITH NIGHTMARE AS KIER 👀👀👀👀
(so many tasty pairings!!!)

omggggg baby pterodactyl noises!!!! i love her <3<3<3<3

yeyeyeyeyeye!!!! :DDDDD

................... alternatively we could make this crepic, with Epic as Kier 👀

It's not that far gone!! Got damage but still able to filter normally, they caught it early enough 🥹 (hence "preserved") the ACR is going down the more I lose weight and eat better tho, which is promising (they keep trying to suggest oz//em///////pic tho, & I decline bc i am fixing my habits orz)

am does my best!! despite the horrors 🥹🙏 thank you buddy ♥

(gnawing at the bars to my enclosure) I AM BEING PERFECTLY WELL BEHAVED 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀

what is wrong with me the past year:
- hypertension
- MASLD
- moderately increased ACR (>18, sb less than 3); preserved GFR (early CKD)
- general stress n shit 🙃

but working to get into a better routine + feeling better bc i miss writing and interacting with yall 🥹

also fyi i am gonna rawdog your novel in one sesh whenever it comes out 🙏🙏🙏🙏

i devoured the first chapter last night and omg, it's so well written!

fandom really got me inserting my blorbos everywhere, been reading The Second Death of Locke by VL Bovalino and i'm like... oh my god it's cream coded. (Cross is Grey, Dream is Kier)

Like seriously!!!!! I also super love the magisystem. A Mage and their Well 🥰🥰🥰 I love neat!vampirism.

also gotta see where cholesterol is at bc it was quite high last year but haven't had a lipid panel done since then...

good news i guess is uhhhh anxiety re drs has significantly decreased XD and i'm no longer super in pain and have weird leg spasms!?

eGFR is fine, but ACR is still high (is 18 iirc? sb less than 3). Ruled out Alport's Syndrome bc no hematuria but nephrologist is still eyeing it by the sounds of it, my NP said she suggested another hearing test just to be sure🤔😔

😩health update:
after some time going back & forth with nephrologist & three NPs, confirmed that yeah I got that KD in me (kidney disease). Right now sitting at "preserved kidney function" due to my efforts over the past year eating right + more activity, but man it's hard to keep on track 🥹

i will forever remember her "lost husband at sea" soft eyes. you guys gave her the best life <3

the only way for me to forgive seeds in raspberries is to make them into a chia pudding. then and only then can my brain be satisfied with crumnch 🥺

oh no, honey, i'm so sorry 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

I am known for exceptional cruelty to the psyche 🫠👍

AM PROUD YOU ♥♥♥ YOUR DID IT!!!!!