im really not feeling great ngl

id like to sleep forever thanks

im incredibly scared of this country but im trying to distract myself with the fact that we're moving

needing to shower but not having any energy

why hair do this

man what is wrong with me lately

i know he's old but god

im so paranoid of something happening to claire

yall im so tired

pretty sure im going through lithium withdrawal wooo (I'm getting my meds tonight)

i feel like i should do something to distract me but nothing is working

lil mochi hates to see me coming

my finch app has to wonder wtf is happening with me

bro wtf

sorry i should shut up but rambling helps a little

god i see my psych Wednesday

i know its the depression but man having some big "you're never writing again" feels

im sorry y'all

we need to throw away the catnap

ha i looked at pics of him and now im crying

i remembered claire is 15 and I wanna throw up

"you're not depressed enough"
"you're too depressed"
like damn bro make up your mind

my brain sucks

i was wondering why my throat hurts and then
ah
yeah

he didn't run to the food bowl and now im breaking down

that feels really surreal right now

god we're moving in a month

i feel heartless sometimes because i don't react to death the same way

im going to miss ladd so much

i feel like im not sad enough