£40 short for tomorrow. Very close. Will have more coming out after... if folks want to help with that too, I'd appreciate it

ko-fi.com/marstruc

If anyone wants to help out, here's my Ko-fi. I'm pretty fucked otherwise.

ko-fi.com/marstruc

I don't know if I could ever do that again...

If anyone wants to help out, here's my Ko-fi. I'm pretty fucked otherwise.

ko-fi.com/marstruc

I sure would love to just... have a month or two, where I don't worry about money.

Both bank accounts overdrawn
More money waiting to come out from pushing food costs back

This is hell, and everything hurts.

How the hell am I going to make ends meet?

Kallidora, sometimes when I read your work, I wonder if you pierce your way into the minds of readers in search of new abject horrors.

I feel like I've had some of mine pulled out here and made them, so, so much more horrifying. I'm genuinely lost for words.

Magnificent work as always.

I think it's why domming is so... hard and intermittent for me.

I either need to be in a good mental state, or have my libido override my fear.

Otherwise, I just don't want the responsibility. I don't want the possibility of fucking someone up like was done to me.

It scares me beyond compare.

A lot of this I think is why I don't feel like I'm worth loving. Why I hear the words and feel them glide past me without much interaction.

I did heinous things as a domme. I've been so very slowly clawing it back.

I might've had someone else at the controls, but it was still me underneath.

Fuck me, laser designated and identified.

Gotta find £30 in 12 hours, then a fair bit more by Friday. Fuck.

Every time bootblacking gets brought up, I think about my dad polishing his boots before and after weekends away with the TA. Not so much fetish context, but I can never forget the smell of polish.

drawing of a burning warehouse “all you had to do was pay us enough to live”

people will tell you it’s complicated but it’s really not

it's always when you leave that you feel most alone... fucking depression sucks.

probably going to ask for help, tomorrow. fuck.

👀

Thank you! I really appreciate it! I've already started on Chapter 2, and this is definitely going to go places.

The gang has fused to create the ultimate lifeform
#deer

this is why i didn't want to come back, it all fell on me, i can't sleep until its gone and it wont be gone. fuck.

my libido is going fucking wild, hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhfuck

I wrote a mechsplo fic
It's kinda, it's going somewhere.
It's gonna be good.
Really good.
And this is just chapter 1.

Enjoy ITERUM, inspired by #WARHOUND by @kallidorarho.bsky.social
archiveofourown.org/works/82795581

I wrote a mechsplo fic
It's kinda, it's going somewhere.
It's gonna be good.
Really good.
And this is just chapter 1.

Enjoy ITERUM, inspired by #WARHOUND by @kallidorarho.bsky.social
archiveofourown.org/works/82795581

the depression is in just
hitting
fucking
hard

today.

can it fuck off, please?
I don't want to hear about war, or ai or whatever.

I just want to sort my own shit.

if I can't do that, how the fuck can I sort anything else?

wondering what the hell i do. the trip went well. and now i'm back here.

do i try to move out?
do i just focus on trying to get shit cleaned up?

either way, i'm raising funds... and i think the former would leave me happier. maybe.

Glad you had such a good time!

yeah i got Con Crud kinda shit. that sucks. still worth it though.

maybe i should just sleep. i'm not doing so hot. physically and mentally rough

SWANSEA NO LONGER CONTAINS ME.

SOON, NEITHER WILL WALES.

YOU WILL COME TO FEAR THE DRAGON, ESCAPING THE LAND IT IS UPON THE FLAG OF.

A black-latex-clad drone is held by the neck by another, taller, white-latex-clad drone.

Failing at your task will be punished accordingly~

"Look I'm not interested."
*autisticly waits stubbornly*
>5 hours pass
"Why are you still here?! Leave!"
"Okay! you didn't have to shout at me..."

I made my friends watch Buckaroo Banzai with me last night while waiting for a high to kick in. I don't think it did, but it was so worth it.

Being with people, in person, cannot be beat.

-soon-