I have read like 10 webtoons start to finish in the past 3-4 days to try and fill the void of friendship and romance in my life and you know what whilst i'm reading them at least it works so well to feel love and appreciation through the medium of great writing about them.. and then they end :(
tonights playlist is takane lui in the car, i'm gonna soar like a holohawk that's for sureee 🪶🪶🪶
you know nerissa.... i too... want to throw myself into a nuclear reactor !!!
thinking about nerissa and calli's sick fight and angry singing at eachother.... "god i love women" -gigi murin (probably) www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wnj7...
these two slayed this voca song for real though..........
Sore wa muri dayo...
recently i keep thinking about how because i don't have that i want to like.... make videos about my intense feelings to webtoons or anime... because they are really intense and emotional sometimes.. and i wonder do people feel like me.. but i dunno where to even begin....
i just want someone who i can share all my extreme emotions and feelings over webtoons and anime and stuff with.. it sucks feeling everything so intensely and not having anyone to like express it too.. it would be so nice to see someone look at me happily as i yap to them.. a simple kind of love..
This all is what I picked up from con earlier, it’s nice to finally (re)break the seal and own some more Holo merch… but man it’s expensive…!
also I went to a con today, low effort cosplayed Subaru there and attended a UK hololive meet which was super outside my comfort zone :)
coming back from the grave to say that Nerissa's #RequiemforLove3D is... so. fucking. PEAK.
is it acceptable to cope by listening to my fav senzawa song on repeat that I already listen to or singing to myself on a weekly basis... www.youtube.com/watch?v=8zWz...
dooby... it's the little things like seeing this tweet that remind me some good things can come from the sadness, we will lose a whole host of holo interactions forever with Gura's departure...
but we may stand to gain friendships publically reunited in the form of Dooby or Nimi collabs.
our little shark 💙
the last glimmer of hope was biboo's blood typers collab and they just ended pretty adrupt 20 seconds before gura starts.. oh man i'm not ready for it hahaha
haachama mario party was moved too i'm just seeing and i'm already tearing up i mean that's surely it now, JP talents moving the stream as soon as they likely woke up and saw, Calli stream moved
Holo has been a really good support for me again recently but all these gradutations.. it's hurting
there's no cope anymore, it's growing ever closer god i just want to get it over with and have my cry, losing a pillar from the time i was deepest involved in hololive but also someone i have a history with even before holo and came to love all over again... aghhh.. i'll be a bit lost.
this hits hard, it feels like all i know from my main hololive time when myth first got announced and I was around so actively every day so involved, seeing a pillar like gura fall gives me a horrible sense of everything i know and support being lost and it's definitely overwhelming a bit
but man that senzawa tweet of the fish emoji a week ago being the first tweet she made under that life in like 2-3 years and now this annoucement, it's either drumming up engagement for something big knowing people will speculate and tune in... or graduation...
BUT i also know as a big senzawa viewer and gura viewer since that she was not in a good place in life in her senzawa era and the style of content and such produced in that time probably came from a difficult part of her life which I wouldn't want her to fall back too, she's been happier as Gura.
I will say this now if Gura does graduate... I really hope we see Senzawa come back swinging because.... (i always kind of like senzawa's memelord content more) WHO SAID THAT-
but I always came to love Gura when I followed her over from her past life and would miss her and holo interactions dearly
FRICK.... Calli just moved her doom stream the second i hit post on that tweet it's so fucking joever
upon chatting in the hukec i've began to cope harder because there's too many signs of a graduation that aren't happening this time like no holo members heart replying the tweet, other streams are not being cancelled or rescheduled around the time of this gura stream etc.... pls cope pls
man my last posts just has so many phrasing errors and it's because i am NOT thinking straight rn...
but i don't think even i can cope that hard to believe that, it would kinda be insensitive to the real graduation to sort of mimic what we've come to recognise at a graduation thumbnail and stream... there's 2 people graduation real soon would she really do that, I really just think Gura is going...
okay... gura... uhm this one will hurt but you best believe i'm coping so fucking hard that it's not going to be a graduation because i cried live at mumei's and i barely ever watched her in comparison
knowing gura's past life my cope is that it's a mega troll and it'll be a goofy gotcha prank
being emotional to see the day again, bdg your song is still making me cry 7 years on but thanks, because I really often do not think that i'm going to see the day...
i haven’t watched a holo clip in ages the energy has been sapped again to do things the momentum has stopped and i think all my effort was worthless this past month or so..
i really thought i could take it and run with it and just keep going but i was stupid im already slipping back
i have my therapy call at 2pm and it’s 6:20am i haven’t slept a bit and it doesn’t look hopeful that i will soon, then i have work tonight too i’m so over existing in this moment it’s overwhelming actually
omg steam powered giraffe are amazing i would never expect to see their name on here like this, honeybee especially is one of my all time favourite songs its beautiful 😍
