Posts by JJSamaChama
I feel like nothing in these moments, like a small wave can wash me away and the sand that made me just goes back to the way it was. I'm trying to hold on to hope, I know I'll get back up, but I'm losing strength each time, I need to get it back
I'm probably gonna always fail at everything I try, because that's how it always seems to go for me, if I'm supposed to look forward to growing then why does it never feel good when I do? I just want to be proud of something I can do, but I'm inadequate in everything, I feel like nothing
I am flawed, I remind myself everyday I wake up that I am i and will never be close to perfect, loving and hating myself are constants. I love that I am kind and try to be good, but I hate that I can never live up to my own expectations, that I let myself down. I fear I dissapoint others as well
Maybe it is just a game, maybe it is just art, maybe it is all just to be fun, but why can I not strive to have fun and be excellent? Is that so wrong to wish for both? Am I not enough? I'm not allowed to have both because I am flawed? I don't care if the world isn't fair, I want to be, I want to be
I don't know what I need to do to grow, the path ahead is dark and I feel I am going in circles and never where I need to, I feel alone, lost, and afraid. I don't want to fade away into nothing, but it seems that is the direction I am heading it. I don't know where the light is at
Others can find success, others can fulfill their dreams, but not me, never me it feels like. Why do I feel this way? When others have had worse to climb from, when others have had nothing to stand on but still climbed, I know it is wrong to defeat myself before the battle has started, I feel weak
I am filled with anger at myself for my incompetence in everything I have been trying to do lately, I feel like I lack everything I need to actually get to where I want to be, I want to make a name for myself I want to be able to find my wings and truly be content but I am always struggling, always
first jj stream of da year and i'm coming back with more chrono trigger :^)
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Alright I'm playing more Chrono Trigger! Gonna try and keep it to about 2 hours so I don't strain my voice trying to read all the lines lmao
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I've never played Chrono Trigger before but have been meaning to for a long time, I have no idea what's in store but I feel like it's gonna be magical for me! Streaming it to twitch now!
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Metroid Prime 4 tomorrow... though I have my initial misgivings it would be remiss of me not to play it to fully form my own opinion of the full game. I will give the JJ review!
I'll try to maybe possibly finish Resident Evil tonight maybe perhaps perchance? maybe
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Can't believe I got myself killed in resident evil and lost about 30 minutes of progress cause I couldn't kill the zombie hiding in the coffin aAHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Classes and fighting game stuff, and etc. take up so much of my time, so I gotta stream when I can!
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Never played the first Resident Evil.... so I'm gonna play the 2014 one instead!
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alright let's try and knock out this amnesia hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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oooOOOooooOOO scary Amnesiaaaa ooOOoOOooo (please hold my hand I'm scared)
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auuuuuuu uni 2 is super fun but i'm dropping so much stuff or don't know what to do after landing some moves, also on defense i'm hella weak so I gotta get that down pat but it's such a good game aaaaaaaaaaa
incredible maneuvre by me forgetting to unmute my desktop so the gameplay could be heard, gonna have some growing pains getting back into streaming more aueueueeueu
I escaped pools at EVO!!! .................................................................. now what? ...................................... I'll figure it out..............
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I played it for the first time ever this year and I gotta say supergiant does not miss
alright i took a bit of a break cause i've been busy with evo stuff but I'll be streamin this week promise! probably more killer is dead cause that shit slaps, and streaming fgc training stuff
Ahh got knocked out and it stings a little.
BUT I WONT LET IT GET ME DOWN!!
I already achieved my goal! The only path is up! I'll get stronger!
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