🌈 queer 911, this is an emergency: I was 2 seconds away from hitting send to my homophobic boyfriend who I'm about to marry and have a kid with.

I'm not there yet but reading posts like these, I might find that final crack.

Consider the possibility you're actually tired of PERFORMANCE and don't feel like satisfyong other people's expectations. You're always you.

I guess what I wanna say to all men and women out there who some days feel not feminine enough or not masculine enough: you're always a woman, you're always a man, and "underperforming" the societal gender roles doesn't make you less so.

My genderfluid experience actually is that, even when I'm feeling masc, I'm not less of a woman. Just as when I'm feeling fem, I'm no less of a man. When I feel non-binary, on one hand I'm neither, but at the same time I'm the sum of both. I always feel like a whole human experience, like a fusion.

In the middle of a writing panic; I know what to write, know exactly what's next, I have the urge to write, but my body is hitting breaks.

The act of typing, writing by hand or even speaking out loud seems wrong. What is it brain? What's wrong fingers? Why are you terrified of my creative energy?

All the things she said all the things she said?

Also for free on Wattpad 🧡

www.wattpad.com/story/406063...

(In fact I love the reading UI there much more, but don't tell Inkitt)

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It's got that friends to enemies to lovers, hero x villain that you love

#amwriting stressfully because I had to finish 3 more chapters out of 8 for the Wattpad 8 Chapter competition by the 28th to submit AND Inkitt's New Year, New Story.

On the other hand, 27k words and I reached the point where every chapter now offers a new turn so, writing is gonna be fun again!

I sat down to write a chapter of my book, how did I end up scrolling audhd / queer bluesky threads and it's 4 am ??

we are 😭

yaaaaaaay clap clap clap

people hate playing chess with me because (1) I suck at it but (2) I will n e v e r give up or admit defeat so I will stretch a game out for over an hour, with my single last piece remaining running all over the board until they can finally corner me 😭 must. survive. until. the last. breath.

brain currently looping Love From The Other Side by Fall Out Boy but specifically just the line "I'll never go, I. Just. Want to be inviiited." over and over and I might throw up soon if my brain doesn't shut up soon :D

Maaan I wish I had that consistency, because at least if I wake up with a shitty mood I will know that the day is gone and just have a day off instead. For me it's like, ONE random thing in my day can suddenly make me plunge into unfathomable sadness, and then THAT's the feeling I can't shake off

I guess that's the short version and I'm still trying to understand whether my mistake was assuming from the start that she was evil and never giving her the benefit of the doubt, or whether my mistake was getting close to her anway even though I thought like that... sigh.

I miss her but I don't.

Cue my toxic behavior as a response, where I "call her out" on what a surface-level, unfeeling, fake person she is. I should've set my boundaries better instead of lashing out, especially if I believed it to be one-sided. She got tired of me telling her everything she does is "wrong". THE END.

Guess I was honoured she found me "infinitely interesting" a "deep" but I had trust issues and was secretive and tried to tell her nothing because whatever I told her felt binge-consumed and not appreciated at all, no empathy or genuine interest, I'm just "stimulation" for her...

My autistic ex, who likes brains, digs in people for entertainment, and when she thinks she has them figured out she loses interest and finds a new target like a vampire. And it's like, I get it, but it made every interaction we ever had feel like she's using me and not actually valuing what I say.

thinking about how i blatantly ignored the homework assignment when i was in school and showed up with a 20 page essay on a completely unrelated topic which was my special interest at the time and had a meltdown when the teacher interrupted me and wouldn't let me finish reading it to everyone 🙃

y e s

Different turtle depending on the animated generation / reboot. It's very much 2003's Raphael, 2012's Michelangelo, 2018's Leonardo and Donattelo

for research purposes: guys, gals, nonbinary pals, how or where do you usually discover your next super gay love story or queer fiction in general to read?
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(eg. me, browsing physical bookstores or Pinterest)

(i feel for you and get it but i don't have anything meaningful to say except that as my friend who organizes regular local Single's Mingles says, one can find a friend there, or like, it's more fun if the focus is on celebrating being single, idk, didn't wanna leave without saying something🙃)

*sigh* Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. The edgy 2003 version specifically 😩

Me, staring at what I just wrote: "The heck is this fifth-wall breaking meta shit?"

Serafima: Funny how that works, because interview-Jin-Haru likes to analyse the whole journey from start to end, thought story-Jin-Haru is caught up in the now or the past. Meanwhile ,story-Mason is taking the long-term into consideration all the time, yet he you are, going with the flow...

#amwriting Character Interviews for my behind-the-scenes for Echolite on Patreon:

Serafima: Jin-Haru has read most of the script ahead already, but you don't do that, do you?

Mason: I like to discover things about myself as I go, yeah.

a man is laying on a bed taking a selfie with his phone . Alt: a man on his bed looking at his phone, smiling, and kicking his feet giddily

Me rereading my own story so far on Wattpad like