🫂

OH FUCKKKKK I FORGOR DAUGHTER IS TAKING US TO SEE DEFEATED SANITY TOMORROW!!! 🔥🔥 :3 🔥🔥

to the tune of Head Like a Hole

🎶 bow down before the swirled soft serve

youre going to get a nice desert 🎶

Can't Cheat Karma YouTube video by Zounds - Topic

i

just don't know

what i can do 😔

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more importantly: I have bass covers to make 😑

streaming/gaming/content rig will be set back up in my living room workspace today finally

good step for The Plan

might stream something tonight or tomorrow if i get a bug up my butt for it :3

realizing Hedwig probably occupies this exact same space

i haven't thought of these films let alone revisited them since cracking

Velvet Goldmine

worse when the movie was one of her favs

and you watched it together

over

and over

and you sat there silently yearning for a whole fucking world you somewhere knew you belonged in

and you pretended it meant nothing, less than nothing

sometimes when a partner gatekeeps your identity and sexuality, a cool trauma can imprint on queer media you attached to but then painfully excised yourself from because your partner claimed said media as hers, and you listened and made yourself believe it 🙃

ty very needed 🫂

i have to watch it now because it was my daughter's pick

and I have to keep my trap shut through it because of who gave me the trauma around this movie

ahhhhshit 🙃🙃🙃

*didn't

shit 🙃

i shouldn't have said yes to watching this movie

i don't realize what trauma this one is for me

shit 🙃

i put my wig on my cat for a second and my daughter said he looked like a Bloodborne boss 😭

every dozen or so days doesn't seem so bad, right? 🥺

*has

again! im doing this AGAIN 😯

wtf had gotten into me 😳

if you're in an abusive relationship, some day you'll probably be here

and that likely sounds very sad to you right now. but know this: it means you survived. it means you're going to survive

yes, it also means the thing you're clinging to will die. but it must

for you to survive

being tired of feeling like this is pointedly why I'm finally doing the work of distancing

i need to finally finally after decades find my family. this wandering the cold shit while people gather adjacent to me with fake passing gestures that scream "obligation" is old

im tired. i need to rest

seeing a lot of others out there who sound just like i feel

shit feels like a wasteland. we're all so fucking damaged and isolated

just literally buzzing with it this morning 😬

Nervous Energy YouTube video by Unwound - Topic

😬😬😬

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polished off s1e1-5 in one sit last night, engaging af

someone awesome got me into watching through For All Mankind and im super enjoying it ver much ☺️

Mountain Energei YouTube video by The Fall - Topic

signed:

- the Fishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 🐟

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i hate morning depression

i absolutely cannot wait for afternoon malaise to kick in already 😔

Dreams (2004 Remaster) YouTube video by Fleetwood Mac - Topic

what you had

and what you lost

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me, grocery shopping: *picks up a bag of Babybels*

Dave Gahan, from somewhere in the deep recesses of my head: 🎶 Your own.. personal.. cheeses.. 🎶