Guess which birb is getting glasses? this birbbbbb

Not the best timing but I think it will help reduce my migraines bc… I struggle a lot and I can’t deal anymore lol

I already have reading glasses but mann my left eye struggles so bad seeing far away 😭

LRP: I agree, as a cis lady I have always had a preference for femme appearances & aesthetics but sometimes I feel my gauge on the gender spectrum shift & it’s been fun to explore that.

For me, things haven’t changed much, but I realize I’m not as binary as I thought & now feel more like “myself” 🩷

Gender should literally just be a common thing that people *should* examine in order to have a fullness of life, even if nothing massively changes. It should be as common as developing a fashion style or a music taste. Deconstruction of societal imprint, no matter how “far” you go, is freedom.

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Oh aaa Happy birthday dear!!!!! 🎂🎉🌈🌷🩷✨ I’m glad you’re having a good day!! Have fun and keep having lovely ones 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

This doesn’t happen -every day- but boy, it happens too frequently enough to disturb my spirit 🫠🫠🫠

Anyways… I’m gonna keep moving forward I guess. I just need to disengage and disassociate in the meantime.

Unfortunately a lot of the hurts come from (extended family included) the usual boundaries and past traumas but also: homophobia etc, heteronormative ideologies projected on to me, and sometimes downright being disrespectful towards me. Lol like why do I need to put up with -any- of this garbage?

so in a big way, this is for them to see at least one of their grandkids getting married. I honestly don’t know if the rest of them will anytime soon

I love my family but I recognize that I can’t be around them how I’d wish to be. I can’t invest my energy into getting hurt like all these years past

Is it sad that I see my wedding being one of my last “family obligations” to do before I decide that everything after that is our choice (my fiance and I) and our lives? And that, I don’t need to include anyone else in it if we don’t want to

Reality is that my grandparents are getting older too

Also it’s absolutely horrendous the way certain toxic streamers influence (especially) young men and boys

I don’t have the energy to elaborate but Louis Theroux’s recent documentary gives a perspective of this. I hope parents see it because it’s very eye opening on what their kids watch…

Sorry I’m just venting but I’m at my wits end like always and keeping it together is getting progressively more difficult for me… I try to distract my mind in work or games but when I stop those, reality hits me all over again. Some days are better, but I haven’t had a fully peaceful day in years.

I am trying to teach boundaries, something that didn’t exist until recent years for my family and also learning how to say our feelings without lashing out but like… it’s a little too late for some people to learn this I feel

So working with that? Feels impossible. But I have no choice

Really wish certain family members would stop making me wanna cancel my wedding plans and go elope instead

Trying my hardest to keep harmony but I’m no therapist nor a mother and I’m put in that position daily. It’s not my job to teach full grown adults how to behave 🫠

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Yeah!! For reals, sometimes messy and finished is better than Fully Refined and finished in 4 years fhdkdhkshej

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Sending you my biggest hugs dear 🫂🩷🩷🩷

I love refining sketches but it takes forever, I remember chipping away at personal pieces for YEARS lol fhdkdjdj

Which is fine but!! I wanna make all the art while I can, I know I won’t be able to forever… ; w;

I’m struggling with my art so much, so I’ve been tweaking my main brushes & hoping it will help the art block…

I also just wanna draw softer, rounder shapes..I feel like I draw too stiff/sharp sometimes and try to perfect lineart too much orz

I wanna loosen up and let lines be sketchy messes again

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This week’s ep of Frieren? Dat animation???? absolutely delightful to experience 😭🩷🩷

I feel like I’m not alone in this but the crit hit combo of personal problems + world problems = mega Bad Vibes and it is not helping me prevent the crying breakdowns I keep having

I want things to get better for all… I’m getting married this year and I want to be able to live life to the fullest

Silksong ost helping me ward off depression (and also healing some past traumas whilst listening to certain songs) + combo of friend support is keeping me going (i love u dears)

LMAO i love you to pieces avibab, thamk u 🥹🩷🫂🩷

It’s so frustrating!! Esp bc these fam members are only 10+ years older than me but act like bratty teens… like dude I don’t have the energy to teach you how to behave kindly lol

Did i know this would happen? Yes, did I do it anyway? Yes. Because it was the right thing to do, granted I would have preferred it without the direct fear mongering statements towards me but anyway. Thankfully I remembered I can choose to invest my time in energy elsewhere.

lol love having to deal with extremely close minded, arrogant extended family members who need to learn emotional regulation and will take out all their insecurities on you by lashing out when you confront them with facts & reassurance :))) /s

a note that I’m so thankful for my friends and loved ones throughout the years for hearing me out and offering support, I truly wish I could take the offers at the time but something always came up. I will be okay, and I know if I can move forward, I will 🩷

that has been burnt down since years ago. I just need to find a way to stabilize myself through this.

I see myself withering, my body really shows it and I need to take care because I can’t hold on like this. It just sucks being stuck in a situation like this… I can’t feasibly move yet

I know we can’t force people to help themselves and I am in a situation where I can’t avoid said person. So for decades I’ve tried to at least have some semblance of a harmonious relationship even if it’s minimal and that’s just all but broken now. I cannot continue putting back together a bridge-

Having a really bad evening today, I’m very thankful my dad came to comfort and support me. I’m glad my relationship with him is finally healing after all these years… he helped me more than he realized today. 🌱

Got some good news for future things! But now I’m dealing with other sources of stress and it’s draining me, Batman 😞😞😞

Gonna keep trying to focus my energy on my tiny circle of things I need to do instead….

Yess!! ITS SO GOOD AVIII ITS SO CUTE AND FUN 🩷🩷🩷🩷

I will love her FOREVER 🩷🩷🩷

Zammie is too powerful and has always KO’d me with her cute girls since I first saw her art on dA many moons ago but… Noba?? My pink Kryptonite. Goobai.