Also new episode of Daredevil today. That keeps me going too. Bright side. Positives
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But 10 years ago I was just depressed. At least now I can be physically stronger AND depressed. Got that going for me

2016 was a bad year for me. 10 years later here we go again

Craziest thing I saw today was a car crash that happened literally in front of me. Felt like slow motion. No one was seriously hurt but saw a car spin around and another crash into a fence in someone’s yard.

Hold on til May: broke.
Hold on til Brand New Day and Doomsday: woke

Just gotta live long enough to see Doomsday

A week and a half and I can bed rot for 2 or potentially 4 days straight, turn my phone off and just not exist for a while

There was legitimately no point to doing that. Why even do that?

Having these goals, August Burns Red, Oceans Ate Alaska, Erra, and P1-P3 era Periphery don’t seem too far off to start learning. Being able to play ABR or Periphery feels like I could learn anything because they were an early influence for me wanting to learn an instrument.

KL- Deep in the Willow, Hive mind

Spiritbox - Silk In The Strings, Holy Roller, Eternal Blue

Veil of Maya - 20/200, Punisher, Nyu/Leeloo

Volumes - The Mixture, 91367(?)

Periphery - Alpha(?), Heavy Heart

On the bright side I have some songs I want to learn for the next month or two. Then in the summer maybe finally learn The Mixture and a few Veil of Maya songs, some more Knocked Loose and Spiritbox. I think feeling the feelings out by learning songs help a bit.

Feels like the book is closed indefinitely. It’s kinda good when there’s stuff to do to keep busy to not think about it. But when I do I just want to sleep for 16 hours and that’s NOT good. I have to feel all the feelings to get better

Started logging progress and consistency. Starting to gradually hit new PRs and I don’t get sore as much. Hopefully by the end of the month I can hit 45 on the pendulum squat

Taking my Nerve Conduction Registry exam in May to be a R. NCS. T. Kinda surreal to think about. Neurophysiology is neat.

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Me lately. But we move forward. No long term goals other than just wanting to own a house and save for retirement.

Buying a new bass will make me feel better

I really messed up

I want to build Lego sets :/

The Mixture isn’t far away to get and that is absolutely insane to me. That has been in my head for 12 years and I’m so close to being able to play it. 91367 is still a ways off though

Nah bro this sucks.

Whelp at least I got Daredevil to look forward to tomorrow so that’s neat.

Think I’m ready to hit a new level. 3-4 more easy-ish songs to learn then I think it’s time for some early Volumes. It feels pretty cathartic that I feel delusional enough to think I can learn my inspirations now.

Think I’m starting to hit my stride with bass. Getting closer and closer to being able to play my favorite songs.

Belcarra is coming along very well

Once i get hanging leg raises down it’s over

And I just got to the Niagara episode of The Office. Someone end my suffering 🫠

6 years isn’t nothing.