I really don't want to come on here just to vent and complain but... god, it really feels like everything sucks now. every social platform feels awful, everything feels like a commodity, it just like... what do you even do at this point
I've always kinda been a discord hater but esp. in light of recent discord news:
putting entire knowledge bases for a community/interest on a discord server is and always has been immensely unserious behavior and anyone who does it should not be trusted to maintain any information ever
I love watching videos covering weird disturbing books and I always get the feeling that I could write something like that tbh. like, I've been wanting to write more for years and I feel like I could write some quality freak shit
I sent my therapist the guide to mod her 3ds and I feel like I'm doing the lord's work
maybe this isn't a good venue to talk about this but I dunno, I'd rather be open about it than to feel even a single moment of shame about it
today in therapy I had a moment where I realized just how... upsetting some of what I went through as a teen was. like, to spell out how textbook of a case of grooming I went through, is...it hurts. and I feel so bad for that younger me who had no idea what they were going through
I know a lot of stories about the "dark web" are just scaremongering but like even the stuff people might reasonably do on there just feels so corny. like ohhhh my god you bought drugs and talked about edgy shit anonymously? should we tell everyone? should we throw a party? should we invite 4chan
I've been playing too much tony hawk pro skater lately and have become convinced that this should be my personal style irl
hello if you're a mutual that I met on here I want you to know that I hope you're doing well and I greatly miss talking with you lovely people
tonight's album on my new mp3 player
I beat Portal on my Switch and I think it's exactly what I needed to remind me why I love video games
also it's almost 20 years old jesus christ
on telegram @ hellodober and on signal @ amp.2468 just to throw it out there
should I start pushing for people to use Signal again or should I just go back to bed
one day I will own the $800 49 disk Criterion 40th anniversary box set, mark my words
moodboard
"slop" as a descriptor has gotten way too out of hand. I don't even mean for AI shit, people are way too comfortable describing the most mundane shit as fucking *slop*, it's like a thought terminating cliche
it's obviously disappointing and disgusting but be so fucking for real right now
the only thing I have to say about the Epstein files is
what the fuck did you people expect
did you think trump would be like well ya got me here you go, here's All Of My Crimes
been almost a year since this time in my life and I can firmly say: who the fuck is this. I think I was maybe just Posting Through It because I was having a very difficult time then and things haven't gotten better
audiobook of The Politics of Trauma by Staci K. Haines
alright I've had a million false starts with books this year but I'm gonna finish this one, this one is important
I am trying to play older games for inspiration but unfortunately I have ipad baby brain and 98% of games made before 1990 feel like video game homework
I have assembled my game backlog for 2026 and I will be starting my manifesting and affirmations now because I have beaten one (1) game in 2025 and the total time to beat it was one (1) hour
I noticed it months ago tbh, the only posts that would get literally any attention were when I quote reposted and after a while I was like... who am I doing this for. I felt so connected and inspired when first starting but then the platform just became so bloated, it was really disheartening
been feeling very lost in terms of community. feels like every platform is either Yell Into the Void or Small Private Secret Room of 10-50 People. it's hard to know where to go to like... talk to people and share things
hello I hope anyone still following this account is doing well
trying to post anything meaningful and that doesn't appeal to lib brain rot has felt very futile but I'm grateful for the people I met here
I have a long flight tomorrow, please throw movies/books/games/music at me
it's not really the same as analog obv but part of the reason I hoped more people would use Signal is because it has a stories feature, and being able to share stuff in a way that was asynchronous and secure and private was honestly really nice
I'll check metacritic from time to time but at this point it just feels like we're being fed an endless parade of slop. I've lost so much interest in knowing about basically any movies or shows coming out
this ex also repeatedly argued that Elden Ring is, categorically, a 3d platformer
one time an ex tried to argue that Satisfactory would never reach version 1.0 because of some meta joke about capitalism and production. when I told him that made no sense from a game dev production standpoint he did not care. this was the rigor that he approached most topics with