Kidneys still swollen and pissed. Not getting my dope til the weekend

Thank god, I thought I was going to get my gear before the weekend and I am severe pain.

Almost 3 years managing a secret fent habit. Really hard to only indulge two days a week, but I'm uninsured and can't get MAT.

Should I take my upper and a shower or lean into taking a nap and showering after?

Pink lemonade vape juice is incredibly satisfying

New batch of dope is supposed to be amazing but I haven't got my batch yet. Soon, hopefully

Caught 'the nod' three times yesterday. It was so warm (kind of warmth that creeps up your spine) and comfy (like the best hug you've ever had). Plus, pain relief, which was the goal anyway

$4 stamp bags 🤤 guess I'm not buying that months worth of bars

A screenshot of a white-on-black terminal depicting a 19x19 go board in ascii graphics, with empty grid intersections as periods, and black and white as Os and #s

It’s absolutely incredible that one of the largest Japanese-run Go servers, which has been running since 1992, is still accessed entirely via Telnet. And while most players use GUI clients that use Telnet under the hood, you can still connect manually and get ASCII graphics streamed to you

Half an ounce of wax later and I've managed to get my appetite up like 3 times. Dabs fucking suck. It is easier to make and smoke your own crack and I'm being dead serious. Probably more relaxing too

I can't think of a single reason waking up tomorrow would be a good idea

Bet my parents didn't anticipate a child who purposely combines dangerous drugs just in case. Latest round, I signed a DNR. It was depressing, but the right choice. Permanently exhausted

My mom had 3 abortions and I'm still bitter I wasn't number four. Selfish prick of a father didn't bother with a condom either. Anyone who thinks life is some kind of gift hasn't suffered enough yet.

Oh, I wanna text him a load BPD bullshit, but I'm resisting. He doesn't love me anymore. Care, yeah, but that doesn't mean shit. I'm looking for someone to be my side

Really should start fucking other people. He won't notice or care. I'm not doing this half-measure situaship bullshit when I can happily see strangers who will meet my need for intimacy. Not the way I wanted things to go, but neither has anything else

I was hesitant about the DNR, since I've been revived many times. I'm sick of it. Each time there is less and less for me to look forward to.

Closest feeling to love is opiates. Plus, they won't abandon you. Those nods were so satisfying yesterday. Except the anxiety when I woke up and couldn't find my tooter and bag (lost in the blanket). All was well and I kept nodding until the bag ran out. Felt great

Eating has started to repulse me. I know I need to eat something today to keep the rhabdo at bay, but I'm not feeling it. Green tea, Benadryl, and seltzers it is

Should've taken a break cause now I'm out and on pain again, bit yesterday was blissful. No pain, random nods, and a hot shower

Gear was an unnatural grey color, tasted funny, and lasted a little longer than usual. It felt great tho. Really nice to be able sleep and move about with no pain

It's finally here. Color and smell a bit off from usual. One long inhale later and I'm feeling pretty good tho

FBI agent Denise played by David Duchovny and Dale Cooper, played by Kyle Maclachlan, Twin Peaks 1990

David Duchovny played a transgender woman, Denise, on Twin Peaks in 1990 and when greeting Cooper, the show's protagonist, she says, "I prefer Denise, if you don't mind" and Cooper responds with "OK" and her identity is settled within a couple seconds and was a non-issue, 36 years ago.

Do not recommend rhabdomyolysis...my kidneys are the least angry they've been in awhile tho

Missing my cats. Hopefully my pain med arrives and can forget things for a few days

Need my pain med to be available tomorrow.

Japan purchasing Iranian oil in Chinese yuan is unreal. Trump & co corruption changed the global economy almost overnight

If ya don't make with the head....Now I gotta watch that movie