Posts by Owen π§‘
Both.
Oh.
What happened???
I got the carousel but the image quality is still shit for some reason
THE QUALITY'S THE EXACT SAME IT'S JUST THE CAROUSEL WTF
Wtf the quality is the exact same it's just the fucking carousel
This update sucks
Carousel looks shit tho
FUCKING FINALLY
Idk who to talk to.
Wow this is an unholy amount of shame.
I'm drowning in so much self-hatred right now.
WHY WOULD THEY EXPLAIN THE CHAO RAISING MECHANIC WHEN THAT'S ONLY EXCLUSIVE TO ADVENTURE 1 AND 2
BRING BACK THE CHAO GARDENS πππ
I got caught in this trap of caring too much or caring too little, and no matter who I was, I wasn't good enough because I suck at both of those things.
They were trying to make me double down on a bunch of offensive tweets I made when I was a teenager and a lot of stuff that I regret. Made me feel like the current me didn't matter as long as I was expected to fuck up all the time. I was constantly walking on eggshells trying to repress my emotions.
I was impersonated on Twitter for years and I got so tired I started impersonating people back. Then my account got suspended and now I'm here.
I'm not going back to Twitter. I can't.
YEAH IT'S DEFINITELY STARLINE
#sonicidw
AWWW THIS IS SO CUTE
So much aura
Any emotion that overwhelms me, I'm not allowed to feel it, whether it's anger, shame, or excitement. And it's so easy for everyone to dehumanise me because of what I did, because I didn't care about them when I should've. Even I know this and I lost myself trying to change for their approval.
I either blame myself for being an idiot or I blame the people who made me feel this way because I want to do better. Leaving Twitter was a step in the right direction but it's still the bare minimum. I still have to get off the internet forever, go to therapy, repress my emotions, and kill myself.
Then they're like "You need to listen to what people are saying. Do better and take accountability."
And I actually believe that. I start listening again but I do it an unhealthy amount until someone tells me to stop hating myself and then I'm stuck in that abusive cycle.
I care about what I did, I care about who I've hurt, I care enough to try and change myself by listening to what other people want out of me.
"Just ignore the haters" is powerful advice but then I ignore everyone because I haven't earned their love yet, so I assume they hate me.
I know nobody will see this but sometimes it feels like I'm stuck between caring too much or caring too little and I don't know which one of those is right.
If you care too much, you'll obsess over everything and burn yourself out. But if you stop caring, you'll become an inconsiderate asshole.
She's 17, Bojack.
This is why Jevil went insane
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