I turn little black worms into centipedes

that fucking bean that i hate

thank you, everyone. really. i wouldn't be here without you. thank you so much.

I am also appreciative of you giving me space to talk about my own random unpredictable things, albeit mine might be a bit more unpredictable oagkjrnsg

...with each other back then, I have quickly developed a comfy sense of security and BRONESS whenever we talk OAJKRSNG
I'm not afraid of telling you things and I am always happy to hear you share your random past unpredictable lore or whatever you're up to at any dedicated hour.

@acoustic-ramen.bsky.social The most recent addition to my connections, exactly when I needed it. We didn't talk much when we first met, but I already need to thank you for being so supportive of my work when we first talked. Putting my work aside, despite the fact that we didn't talk too much...

...something you liked/disliked. You have expressed to me in the past that you feel like you're not doing enough to assist me in scary situations. I can assure you. You most definitely are, thank you.

@gloomndoomy.bsky.social You have listened to me yap for hours at a time, gave me your advice and was always genuine about how you felt. I think we share a similar type of autism when it comes to how we talk about our interests, so it was always a blessing to hear your detailed thoughts on...

...you greatly appreciate my work and for that I am eternally grateful. Thank you.

@m4nty.bsky.social I think you might just be my biggest fan. LOL. Regardless of where, how and why you have actively encouraged me to keep making art and you have actively demonstrated immense kindness towards me whenever possible. Regardless of what shape or form it is clear to me that...

You have the impressive ability of knowing how to cheer me up quickly despite of my emotional state, and generally you stood with me for longer than I could have ever wished for. Thank you.

For about 90% of my birthdays you have drawn fantastic pieces of art of my characters to give me as a gift, we had countless calls where we talked with each other for hours, you had a drop of ink into pretty much all of my projects and you always encouraged me to be the best version of myself.

@troopsushi.bsky.social UIAOJRKG the moment i wrote your name I started laughing because I'm sure that you're well aware of your importance to me, but I won't use that as an excuse to not say anything about you.

...one of the kindest individuals I will ever meet.

...illusion of a person that just wasn't there for me. I still have the drawing you made of us, and I always smile every time I look back at it. Even if not intentional, the sleeping figure of myself in this depiction is accurate to my behavior back then. I'm sorry. You're incredible and...

@irikachana.bsky.social I apologized to you many times already, and I don't know if I'll ever be free of the guilt that I still feel from how one of our first interaction went. I care about you a tremendous amount. I'm sorry that I couldn't show that to you back then. I was blinded by the...

...with myself as a person. Even after saying all of this, it still feels like I'm understating how important you are. Thank you.

@aloelucidity.bsky.social You taught me to be comfortable with my own body. You taught me to feel comfortable with my own words. You taught me how to live life without being afraid of being myself. You taught me a partner can reciprocate value in a relationship. You taught me how to feel at ease...

test my ko-fi account. Thank you. I don't demonstrate it very often but it is impossible for me not to value you greatly. You are very important to me.

@girlsmelly.bsky.social No matter the time or place you have consistently given me a space to talk and be genuine about my feelings or problems. You gave me hundreds of solutions to tech related problems, helped me set up the convoluted part of corporate accounts, and was even kind of enough to...

ambitious projects. Thank you.

@pvicvg.bsky.social You gave me a voice in moments where I felt like I didn't have one. You protected me from harm whenever you detected a situation where you could do so. You actively pushed me into a direction where I could reach my full potential, and you let me take part in one of your most...

...show my gratitude to everyone. One by one.

I didn't properly show the merited appreciation to some wonderful people around me, that deeply cared about me for a long time. I've gotten a lot better at it now... and I feel like I've been reconnecting to multiple special people this year, but I figured I'd have a special space here to...

I wasn't bold enough to completely cut contact with any of my friends, or make a new identity, but I undeniably put her on a pedestal, and prioritize her words and presence over some of my closest friends. To that, I deeply, and sincerely apologize. There were a lot of moments where...

The second thing, the one which I personally find the worst, is the way I mirrored that exact behavior.

...her group "didn't serve any purpose any longer". I was afraid to break her trust, or to say something that she wouldn't have liked of me to say about her. I was completely lost. That is the first thing I owe an apology for. For not being honest at this moment.

...the consequences of this. One of her friends would occasionally send me messages, asking about her. If she was okay, why she wasn't answering to their messages, or if I could provide them with her new account. This obviously put my in a difficult situation. She explicitly told me that...

...contact she had with her friend group. She told me that my presence was sufficient, and that her friend group didn't serve any purpose to her anymore. Shortly after she does the same with a Minecraft group she was part of. You may interpret this as you wish but I want to talk about...

The discomfort and desolate scenario where both of us stood brought us to a convenient situation where we could be there for each other. Suddenly, I didn't feel too afraid anymore.
Unfortunately, one of the first behaviors that she demonstrated was complete termination of...