I would lick powered Ciel’s armpits….just saying,,,

Hhnnghhgghgdff trueee

Nneedddd

I need someone to make me mindlessly zombie walk/sleep walk around the room eyes rolling back and drooling as they sit and watch, giggling and making fun of how easy I am as they get off to the sight of it….nneeeeddd 💕

👉👈

I’m a good little sister
Good little sisters don’t think
Good little sisters feel funny
Good little sisters don’t remember
I’m a good little sister
Good little sisters don’t think
Good little sisters feel funny
Good little sisters don’t remember
I’m a good little sister
Good little sisters don’t thi

Wishing for friends who would give me triggers only to share with one another

Exchanging messages/public replies passing me around on things they’d do or sharing various triggers and things they conditioned in me

All while teasing me/bragging about me for how I’m such a cute and good subject 😵‍💫💕

Hot, especially when coupled with something like Ageplay or villain x hero styled dynamics

It doesn’t all have to be super high effort long sessions either

I like variety

From the more involved longer sessions

To just someone spontaneously reaching out and giving me a short but lovely experience

To spontaneous silly hypno pranks from friends and mutuals alike

That’s what I want

3/3

I want fun creative triggers that friends can use on me and tease me with

I want sessions that are more personalized experiences that I can look back on fondly and maybe talk about when asked what sessions I enjoyed or when at an event

2/3

I don’t really want “original” so much as I’m looking for more creativity on my sessions/scenes.

A lot of tists kinda just send me spirals and make me touch myself, and while that’s hot, it gets old quickly

1/3

Then do it 👀

Fuckkk I need girls to get all excited and squeally like this when they play with me >.<

Gosh I need to be lobotomized by a cute girl with a spiral shdhdhahddhahdhdh

I guess you can say I’m kinda jaded. But despite all that, for god knows what reason. I still cling to hope, and I still put myself out there, hoping that one day, someone notices, and I finally get to make those friends, and that it will all be worth it. I can only hope…as it’s all I have

12/12

So yeah anon, I guess I have changed. And that’s probably why I don’t smile or get excited like I used to. I feel isolated and lonely, and I just want a friend, or friends. Ones that I can play with and spend time with that actually last and have substance, rather than ones that will leave

11/12

But it never really amounts to much. I have friends that don’t respond until I send 7 or 8 messages over the course of weeks or months, then ghost again and repeat.

That’s kinda what all my friendships in the scene have become. I’m tired of it, I want something with substance

10/12

And for that I kinda envy my mutuals and peers a lot. Hell, I’ve had some pretty BPD bad crash outs in the past because of it.

But now it’s more just…numbness. I’m tired. Despite it all I still put myself out there and put the work in hoping to find those friends and develop those bonds

9/12

My friendships in the hypnokink scene never seem to last. People friend me, promise to do stuff, get close, and then kinda leave once they develop or find their own clique or friend group, and I’m once again left behind back to square one.

I’ve never gotten to develop any true close bonds

8/12

It’s not like I don’t try, ohhhh boy you all see how I’m constantly pushing myself lmao. Constantly posting how my DMs are open, how I want new friends, etc, I even am doing the work and reaching out, DMing others, etc

But it always kinda ends the same way, I’m the stepping stone friend

7/12

I mainly get people spontaneously play with me, make me cum, then leave and come back once they’re horny again. I don’t really have the level of connection or close friendships my fellow peers and mutuals in the scene have

I never really been able to develop those

6/12

But I’ve always kinda been a drifter. While everyone else had their own scenes and friend groups and polycules and people to get close with and do stuff with, I never really did. Sure I had and still have people I can play with, but it’s always kinda been on a very basic barebones level

5/12

I’m honestly kinda lonely.

Over the years I’ve met a TON of people, and many have came and went, sometimes it was my fault due to me making dumb mistakes, other times life just got in the way, other times people kinda just found their own people and weren’t interested anymore

4/12

I’ve been a panelist at irl and online events and have helped organize events in the local scene too and have helped educate others on hypnokink and have been told by many newbies I got them into this scene/space.

What more could I really ask for?

Yet still I’m kinda empty inside…

3/12

I’ve kinda accomplished most things I’ve ever wanted to accomplish.

I made one of the biggest hypnokink discord servers for a while even if I had to pull the plug on it

I have over 19k followers across all platforms

2/12

I…guess I never really noticed I changed? Has it really been that noticeable…?

I guess when I first joined Twitter yeah, I kinda blew up overnight. Ofc that would kinda make anyone bright eyed and excited…

Now it’s a bit different for me…

1/12

She wraps her arms around me from behind and whispers in my ear

What is this feeling? My heart flutters

Before…silence

My mind goes quiet

Empty

Blank

Not a single thought

Before I know it, I’m deep in trance and in her embrace.

She giggles and looks down at me

“This never gets old~”

2/2

It’s dark
Rain pouring everywhere, turning the streets into a blurry watercolor

As I walk to my bus stop I see her
A woman, standing there, waiting

“You’re late,” she says with a smile, like one reunited with a lover, like we’ve done this a hundred times

I’ve never seen her before in my life

1/

*paws at you* can you hypnotize me?
*paws at you* can you hypnotize me?
*paws at you* can you hypnotize me?
*paws at you* can you hypnotize me?
*paws at you* can you hypnotize me?
*paws at you* can you hypnotize me?
*paws at you* can you hypnotize me?
*paws at you* can you hypnotize me?
*paws at you

I need friends who will do this to me,,,please,,,