that will be your april–august situationship!

for a while i rhought i was clean for 12mos now,, it’s 13 months actually how come i didn’t celebrate this

which is why i made a priv dc server for my own tracking xx i love the freedom i get from going to uni

lowk so funny how mom promotes disordered eating habits (injecting peptides, taking my body+food scales) and then decides to not? allow me? who probably needs them more than she does? to take part in that shit?

i love uni bro but the food be too good there it has me like this

interesti g how we most of yall on edsky lowk forgot ab this sub community but if it’s for recovery know you have my support 🙂‍↕️

i got even fatter bru i went through many losses at home losses at school losses in love but honestly y did i allow myself fhose excuses…… whatevs no more excuses i xan’t cos if i don’y lose weigjt

☁️ .𖥔 ݁ ˖🎀 𝐈 𝐍 𝐓 𝐑 𝐎🎀 ˖ ݁ 𖥔. ☁️
⌗ kaku – she/any, eng/fil/日本語OK
⌗ 16, <14 and >18 dni
⌗ i go to uni and won’t be too active
⌗ no dx for now
⌗ clean from sh (11mos, 1y in december !)
⌗ 165.1cm (5’5”)
⌗ sbmi 32.8
⌗ gbmi 18.0
⌗ ugbmi 14.7-16.5

♡ / ↻ to be moots

#edsky #edtwt

okay guys makihn a new intro because all of this is outdated info

OH MY GUCKING GOD KAKUKAKUKOMEBACK

guys if i’m actually gone i probably decided to heal my relationship with food while working on one with her WHO SAID THAT ummmmmm ya! mwaps

oh yeah maybe i should try to heal from this i should yes BUT GODDDDDDDD why are pepol i know saying this is a situationship guys this is what happens in a Wuhluhwuh Situationship (we cosed as skk) UGHHHHHHHHDHSHRJSJDJAKJDAMJS

FUCK i went to a con with this chuuya cosplayer from school and AUGH SHES SO BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND OUT A PRECIOUS GEM but she said she’s straight (BUT! holds a deep admiration for women) (that’s what she said) and it’s when we had this one conversation at a convention i thought

there’s this girl i like but She’s Straight™️

malnutrition may what is uppp

hello orobably gained a lot of weight but i graduated!!!!!!! going to uni in 4 months EEK (i have to unfuck myself before i start school again)

CRASHOUT OF THE CENTURY

liek its only 170kcal and it’s wayyyyy better than thenother quest protein bars i get soyummy

apple pie quest protein bar the best thing ever known to and created by man

dude we had the talk icb people just lied to me about their plans of keeping my mh confidential and it made it ti my mother of all people whag the fuck . she is the stressor so why even tell her ts?????

god i want to cut but j can’t but i want to cut so bad but then i’ll feel bad becoz my counselor and i talked about me being clean please i want to cut and impose harm bht now i dont know how

ummm actually can u die

she’s a fatass she told me not to she’s in denial she’s in fucking denial i’m gonan crash out she just doesn’t want me to lose any more weight because she KNOWS i can and will lose to weigh less than her

i hate you so much it makes my blood boil you told me you allowed it then on second thought you fucking wouldn’t?????? admit it you’re just jealous that i lose weight like this stay fat muffin top bulbous ass bitch

gained to 70kg WATER FAST BEFORE PROM (in 5 days time) will update (my mother allowed it too)

i think i have bpd but i’m too scared to get myself assessed because what if that degrades my integrity as a scholar and by extension as a person

OH MY FUCKING GOD I GOT IN AND IN MY DREAM STRAND TOO

dude as i was typing the quote + its translation the character count said 222 and 222 is the number i pinned to my id lace the time i took the test someone please sedate me!!!!!!

“sure na sure ‘yan! makakapasa ka!”

[you’re set! you’re so going to pass!]

i really, really hope this is the universe channeling itself through the people surrounding me. all i can hope for now is that i pass with my credentials and my performance in the test.

i approached many alumni and current students of that university—heck, even teachers of mine who haven’t had history with it—and they said i’ll definitely pass. but with the statistics, that feels so… overwhelmingly heavy……..