Looking forward to joining you, NYC. Looking forward to still loving & connecting & creating w my Portland family from there. Looking forward to making our networks stronger & feeling the joy of my transition. Not looking forward to the horror, but not backing down anytime soon. 💙🏳️⚧️✊ (6/6)
It also means starting healthcare over from the ground up in a city where trans healthcare is in a more precarious state than it currently is in PDX. But the stable housing & presence of a loved one who is processing the same family trauma as me makes NYC the place I feel I need to be. (5/6)
It means tearing myself away physically from my former partner/current best friend and our pets and partners and chosen family members & the safe & joyous bubble we've cultivated through hardship and resilience our here, but I'll be carrying that forward instead of leaving it behind. (4/6)
I don't have the stability I need out here to manage it while waiting for surgery. But I am fortunate to have a sister w a rent controlled studio in Manhattan who is waiting for me w open arms. (She's cis, and she's an SA/DV survivor and a family exile like me. She's safe). (3/6)
I've been housing unstable out here w my polycule & pets since I lost my job & got evicted in April '24. The daily obstacles of our situation and all of my dysphoria have manifested in the form of a recurrent skin infection on my chest. (2/6)
📣✈️ Heya friends, I'm going to need to relocate from PDX to NYC speedily. Looking for any & all relocation resources to help me figure out what it's gonna take b4 I start planning & fundraising. More context below. (1/6)
to trans masc folk: I care for you from within my fear. If I can compartmentalize what another trans masc person did to me and even tho i have PTSD, it can be done. We need you so bad. I'll protect your new boyhoods, and stand with you in your struggle.
This was so beautiful to read & so so needed! 💙🫂 Eternally grateful to the spirits of all of the trans gods, goddesses, and goddexesses who look out for us that I have such a loving community steering me thru.
both @melibean.bsky.social and @spacebitchual.bsky.social are snoring at the same time and its cute beyond words.
its like a snoring chorus! i cant handle it. all the love. 💜💜💜
Is this the central thought? Either way it's fascinating
Thank you so much, your words are such strong medicine 💙💙💙
I would love that! Was thinking when I was posting the joke that I really don't have any knowledge of whether or not it is or was an effective tactic...just remembered thinking it sounded cool in the '90s/'00s and realized that was decades ago now. It would be dope to hear your thoughts :)
Lilly (left, she/her/they) is standing in front of her RV which is custom painted with an image of The Wave (Katsushika Hokusai) on the sides, wearing purple pants and a green top. Behind her is Chevron, a lanky brindle coated, sand and black colored dog. in the middle zigzag is wearing a black t shirt and cap decorated with wire wraps and metal pieces taken off of bic lighters. on the right is miu in a crop top with the london flag on it and tan cargo pants, a cap with cat ears sticking out her tongue. in the background is salvation mountain, a notorious piece of art painted over an entire mountain that, its a vibrant splotch of color over the desert hill and it says God is Love in big pink paint
miu is standing in the salvation mountain painting wearing a black crop top with a london flag on it, a black cap with cat ears and tan cargo shorts with black rubber slides. behind her and below her is paint, blues on the floor flowing in various shades of blue and white like water in a river. between the lines of blue and white flowing down the mountain are patches of green populated with red and brown trees and yellow and pink flowers and bushes painted on the desert mountain.
mutual aid request:
on the road currently to get to mt shasta california, need mutual aid for fuel, food, weed, tobacco, mostly fuel tbh.
any aid is appreciated, 300 more or so covers the fuel cost
ca/pp: $miusoph
✨$55 to goal fulfillment✨
Pls donate what you can and boost thoughtfully so we can get this goal filled💞💞
If I write powerfully now it's bc I've had the privilege of you cheerleading me for nigh on a decade. Love you. 🥹💙
Thank you for sharing that, it's exactly what I need to hear. 💙
But I know self invalidating thoughts are common for trans folk across the spectrum, and I sure would appreciate hearing any uplifting or validating voices on here rn to drown out the ones I'm wrestling with inside 💙 (6/6)
These are all p unique experiences to what I've gone through specifically as a closeted nonbinary incest survivor who now wishes to change shells from femme to masc as I enter middle age. (5/6)
And I've got the voices of toxic trans ex former roommates calling my identity now internalized mysogyny when... How can it can be internalized misogyny if there isn't a sense of womanhood inside me to hate?? And how are you supposed to support women from inside a body you're not comfy in?? (4/6)
I've got the voices of myself at various stages of life, internalizing and coping with my own abuse by folding my brain and identity a million different ways, each of them uniquely cruel & invalidating, refusing to listen to the voice of the nonbinary kid who's always just wanted to be. (3/6)
But it isn't enough for the rest of the world.
I've got the voices in my head of the family members who've distanced themselves from me bc I came out about my abuse 1st, and they cannot accept anything I assert about myself without chalking it up to that abuse now. (2/6)
Wading thru a lot of self hate & gender confusion in my thoughts this weekend.
As a survivor of incest and a lifetime of misogynistic abuse, nonbinary transmasculinity feels like a safe identity in which to locate myself.
That's enough analysis of my gender identity & body for me. (1/6)
culture jamming doesn't work anymore bc the culture is already thoroughly jammed.
QTP with a game with a 10/10 soundtrack
you ever just top and think about stuff
A photo of me in an A tank and pyjama pants
A photo of me lifting up the tank to reveal a beige bra
If you also suffer from an entire infected biome having grown under ur chest while waiting for your need for top surgery to get taken srsly, the Bali Comfort Flex may be for you!
Funny how since I've started asking my relatives for money, they've stopped calling me "strong" and "brave".
A photo of me in an A tank and pyjama pants
A photo of me lifting up the tank to reveal a beige bra
If you also suffer from an entire infected biome having grown under ur chest while waiting for your need for top surgery to get taken srsly, the Bali Comfort Flex may be for you!
