im on limited data too so i cant even use my phone as a hotspot :')

i hate not having wifi this sucks sucks SUCKS

i dont want this to be real

i dont want to be real

the mental and emotional anguish i go through on a daily basis purely because i know what i want will forever be out of my reach (stability. all i want is stability.)

MEDS I FORGOT TO TAKE MY ALLERGY MEDS TOO FUCK

WAIT. i havent smoked weed at all today and wont get to until past 6pm. nvm. im just mentally ill and off my "meds"

im so upset rn and idk why i think im just like. going crazy

i wna cvt in the bthrm at my hsbnds wrk lol

I WISH I WASNT BROKE I HATE IT HERE

strming is like th only thing i hav going fr me rn this sucks so bad

now i cant strm til we can afford our own FUUUUUUUUUUUCK 😭😭

he mghtve cancld it 💔 no more free wifi fr us oops

that one scene grrrl

I WISH I WASNT BROKE I HATE IT HERE

hsbnd called me cryng, wish i cld pick it up frm wrk,, :< all i cn rly do is offr supprt nd make tn as comfy as pssbl 💔

hsbnd is gonna het me new piercings soon but ive been almost fainting when i cvt so im worried ill faint when im pierced. also my ex who SAd me was with me for my last piercing and hes why ive been almost fainting so it might be even worse >:/

Loser affirmation (affectionate);

“My oshi would want me to take care of myself”

yesterday was such a good day even tho i was sick until 6pm lol. walked 8k+ steps and rearranged some furniture in my bedroom, so i burned a good amount of cals AND got produce and have a new bedroom arrangement in progress :3

e o de piorar eh maior -' #shtwt #shsky #subtwt #ed #edsky

gonna go on a walk with hsbnd n it chose my outfit for me!!! i feel so cute X3

i frew up but!! feel a lot better now!!

whyyyy am i so shakey rn jfc

dizzy today n idk why, ive been eating ok. havent gotten out of bed yet bc its hard and uncomfortable :<

i wish my hsbnd wldnt make me eat, i feel gross

im just not gonna let myself think about my feelings anymore. ill just get high before he gets here so i dont have to deal with it.

he didnt show up and couldnt tell us bc his work kept him late but he might be coming over tn instead fuck my stupid baka life

digital cartoon drawing of a full body young woman drawn in a dark anime style. she's wearing a black blouse and a gray gingham skirt, has pink hair with black streaks, pink bunny ears, thigh high socks, and platform shoes. the background is a digital edited image of crosses and website code.

⟡˙⋆𓆩♱𓆪 do nt cr y for me 𓆩♱𓆪⋆˙⟡

#jiraisky

ok im chill now

i wanna get so high

prbbly just gonna awkwardly sit on my phone or switch silently the whole time again. or go to the spare room so i can work on my laptop again. i rly cant stand this. it feels like he and i are the same sides of a magnet. maybe thats why my hsbnd is attracted to both of us while we repel each other