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Went to have a barbecue at the river, and ELEVEN cats followed me.

I would say my cat aura persists, but they were trying to look cute for everyone for food, not just me.

Within a few weeks, 7 of my health issues have stopped completely or improved considerably. All from managing stress. It feels unreal. I am feeling pretty great. ;-;

Not at all!

✨My finalist entry for the #FFXIV #FanFest2026 Art contest! “The Journey through FINAL FANTASY XIV” made me think about Alpha & Omega traveling around the same sights we once did as our WoLs🥺🧳

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Her retexture is mostly done. [:

I just need to figure out which texture lets me add her freckles and adjust her outfit. The tail had to be simplified. Normally, her tail fluff starts at the underside about midway, so if it flipped in some of the animations, it would be upside down and look funny.

In other news -

My cat keeps coming home from the vet smelling like perfume. I know she's a cuddly cat, and they know it too, but lol stop iiiiit! I keep having to wash it off! Lol

Limit news sources. Tidy your space. Get sunlight. Laugh more. Try a gratitude journal. Create something.

And know you're not alone, you're tougher than you think you are, and if something costs your mental health, it's too expensive.

Future you will thank you. 💙

Long term stress is like a slow poison. Be kind to yourself. Hydrate. Get full rest. Have firm boundaries. Cry when you need to. Put nutritious things in your body. Check in with yourself. Exercise. Take deep breaths. Explore new hobbies and places. Go out of your comfort zone.

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So, I've treated it as such on my own. In the process, a few other issues (including one - liver related) that I've been struggling with for some time have just ... stopped. As someone who gets anxiety over new health issues, this is amazing. It gives me hope. I see I can improve more.

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The list of issues is lengthy, but all of my tests come back looking okay. That is, until recently - my liver got angry. But! I have been seeing signs of improvement in under a week. When I asked my doctor if stress could cause it, they said no, but all my research says otherwise.

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I've hit the 2 year mark of doing yoga. When I stop and look back and see how far I've come, it's crazy. I started because I had nowhere else to turn when my body was new to anxiety attacks. I didn't even understand what was happening and I was collecting ailments like pokemon.

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It's been such a long time since my grandpa has visited in my dreams. The last time was 2 years ago to say happy birthday. This time, it was to say hi, ask if I've been doing my journal, and give me a hug.

I haven't been journaling like my doctor suggested, but I think I should now. Thanks, Papa. 💙

Omg I love Beegachow, and didn't know how much I needed them in my life. Lol

I always love how down to earth you are, Jowol.

I am doing okay, but trying to take things slowly while listening to my body. I cut out caffeine some time ago, just to be safe, and switched to more calming teas instead. Staying hydrated and making sure I get enough calories in my day also, with plenty of rest. And of course, yoga on the daily. 💙

We suspect that it's all the stress and anxiety I've been dealing with, but we're still checking other stuff.

Everyone at the hospital was very patient with me and listened to all my concerns. One nurse just sat and talked with me for awhile. What a good bunch. I am very thankful.

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I really appreciate those who stop by my streams. I deal with a lot of stress and anxiety that I've been learning to navigate in life, and streaming can be a way to distract me and have a fun time. I was in the hospital yesterday for heart and breathing issues. All tests came back great.

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Playing Neva has been such a treat. I am enjoying it a lot so far. 💙

I've been working on Suwillow in emotelab lately. It's been a fun challenge customizing the textures. It took me awhile to figure out how to put the bells on her head. Hoping I can show/use these soon! Also hoping that this is the spark that motivates me to draw more again... ;-;

Every time a new trailer for Stranger Than Heaven drops, I'm reminded it exists, and I get excited again. It's starting to make me think of RDR2 now.

Just some eye doodlin' I forgot about.

#SuwoDoodo #SuwoDraws

Skipped the entire ending (Ender Lilies) YouTube video by Suwillow

Jin hung out with me on stream, using his pngtuber for the first time, while I worked on Ender Lilies.

Mistakes were made.....

For health reasons, I decided to set a soft cap of 4 hours for myself for streaming. This should also, hopefully, allow me to stream more during the week. [:

I've hit my 2 year mark of doing yoga,and I'm still so thankful for it. 💙

Wow, dude.

Also, as an update for her:

Her digestive system seems to have calmed down. We're ruling out a few things, but allergies is suspected.

So, some name context:

- Goblin: She will gobble down her food if not slowed down.
- Trash bag: Countless times, I have mistaken a small garbage bag for my cat.. even spoke to them.
- Beebee: She's the baby of the house. Baby = beebee
- Ori: She was a white kitten, and was named after the game.

Behold! My child, the sock goblin - also known as Trash bag, Beebee, or Ori (real name).

We had to quickly make a vest out of an old sock to keep her from licking her meds. We've discovered that she is very chilled out, wearing this... We might need to get her some jammies. She just ate here.