I'm just some guy on the internet but I've been there and know that dark void well. Depression does a very powerful job of masking the truth, but that's all it can do. If your friends didn't care like it said then they wouldn't bother pretending like it claims they do

Worth getting your eyes tested, a nice pair of glasses can make everything more pleasant

So I'm told, apparently not seeing diffraction spikes from point sources is the normal experience. Can't relate