There is a cricket behind one of the freezers at work. Mocking my silence with its song

What am I up to before I go to work? I’m at the park taking pictures of bees. I’m smelling the flowers. I’m stepping on crunchy leaves. Wtf else would I be doing.

Unfortunately not wanting to talk to someone/ have them talk to you requires that you do in fact- talk to them and say so- and only then will world peace be achieved and we can get back to throwing the greatest party this town has ever seen

Got home from work and mixed some beef stew with mashed potatoes for dinner. Really wish I had a crunchy loaf of homemade bread. Maybe a lit candle or two. Perhaps a bard

Somebody just drove by my house absolutely blasting Believe by Cher- shout out Doppler effect shout out summer time

Easter on 4/20 this year everybody blazing it biblical style (I know nothing about weed and next to nothing about big J man)

I tried to watch Flow with my mom and couldn’t even get like 20 minutes in I was crying too hard… my heart cannot handle the kitty struggle movie :-(

Gros Michel Joker (a banana) from Balatro with a gold stake sticker

I got da gold sticker on my banana!!!!!!!!!

Thinkin about chameleons and their little hands

Explained the Kendrick vs Drake beef to my mom before watching the halftime show so we could both enjoy Kendrick calling him a Pword on live TV

Nami followed the sun to every window today- and Ged just wanted to be included lol

Ya see I love all critters that skitter, but videos of those big ass leaf bugs always heebies my jeebies…………

Soupman wearing a completed Sophie hood knitting project and doing a peace sign awkwardly

An example of how I kept track of my row counts, increases, and decreases through various tally marks and check boxes

I finished making the Sophie hood pattern by petite knit- needless to say I have a digital stitch counter coming in the mail

I’m all caught up to The Apothecary Diaries anime- is it weird to say I forget how much I enjoy watching anime sometimes??

Those shakers with different seasonings for your popcorn. They never stick. Neeeeever stick. You’d think they’d improve the formula after all this time but nooooo. It sinks right to the bottom. Barely a cheese flavored sneeze

Well that was fast. Tiktok opened like normal- but I’m still going to post other places. Like I do not trust that orange menace to keep any promises.

I am on YouTube! I’m theonlysoupman on there as well- I’ll be able to upload vods of my twitch stream there as well as whatever other video format antics I may want to post

RIP tiktok. It’s looking like Bluesky is to be my main yapping app for the foreseeable future. I’m overwhelmed by the constant flood of conflicting news, so I’m going to focus on doing fun stuff instead. Maybe do another exploring Webkinz or Balatro stream on Twitch. Idk. I’m very sad :-(

Mister Geddy with a scratch on his nose still looking very handsome

Little does he know… he’s exactly what I’m lookin for

So like. Yes I could just give rednote my info and have probably nothing happen. But I don’t feel comfortable taking that risk due to the language barrier. AND LET ME BE CLEAR I take this approach with ALL WEBSITES!! I always do stuff like identifying pathways to delete accounts before signing up

So the idea of “sticking it to the man” by downloading a different Chinese app is like. Cool in theory. But a key defense for tiktok is that the user IS and ALWAYS HAS BEEN able to consent, and in the language they speak. You should always be concerned about privacy, but have the right to CHOOSE!!!!

I’d also like to say that I’m okay if tiktok “has my data” because it’s been 4 years and nothing bad has happened to me. And their terms of service are in English so I CAN make an informed decision. Rednote is practically all Mandrin. Even if it is safe- I don’t know! I can’t read it! Skill issue!

I try really hard not to let it show but I’m a very anxious person and I require a lot of routine and control over said routine to not lose my marbles. A big part of my world is crumbling and I’m struggling to cope and I know it’s irrational but that’s how my brain has always worked

I’ve always had an intense amount of anxiety around social media and who’s looking at me and who’s watching and it genuinely triggers something awful in me to feel like I have no control

I’m gonna crash out fr I don’t want to download any more apps. I don’t want to download rednote “for the bit” like I’m TIRED and I’m SAD and I genuinely don’t like having all these accounts and passwords because it makes me nervous

ALSO I keep meaning to stream on my Twitch or Tiktok, but honestly I’m just vibing instead. You never realize how bad it was until it gets better.

A little over a week back on Lexapro and lemme tell you- I have next to no idea what I’ve been doing for the past 4 months. As far as I know, it was all a bad dream💤

I think I need to change my antidepressant before I walk into the river and become one with the salmon. I am not well🐟🐟🐟🐟🐟🐟🐟

I pulled 4 consecutive all-nighters in order to knit a pair of mittens for my mom and ALSO learn how to knit in the first place. I am so tired, but they are done!