""All you had to do was wait for me" I had done that, for over 10 years. Making up your own reality was a recurring reality from 2014."
#wavewalker

"Now that I was scrubbed from the real story, helping her build a life away from the boat as "Us", our travels and that little bubble of love, I was shocked to read an interview where she claimed I was "James with three boys, whom I met on the internet". It felt like a betrayal."

#wavewalker

"No one was around as I stood where we had arranged to meet. I saw her in the distance walking to me... I couldn't speak. "Hello" she said, and we collapsed into a hug unable to speak. 27 years of pain over. The sense of coming home was overwhelming, I will never again know such joy"
#wavewalker

What did I miss this year?
Softness
Femininity
Hugs
Respect

Happy new year.

#wavewalker

Do you believe it?

"For the first time in my life I have someone other than my father looking after me"

#wavewalker

Pushing away everyone who's known and loved you for your whole life surely has to end at some point. About to begin another year of waiting.

#wavewalker

"I told him I'm going to eventually want my freedom"

#wavewalker

"So what do I remember about the person who had so much potential and the incredible bond we have? Disappointment at how someone could abandon every person they knew in an attempt to change her narrative on what really happened. Writing a book doesn't make it real"

#wavewalker

"I told him I would eventually want my freedom" 2015

#wavewalker #europeaneconomicforum2025
#BPD

"Alienating everyone who you've been closest to.... it was a reoccurring theme and I wanted to understand what caused people to do that, and I found the answer"

#wavewalker #BPD

""Welcome home" greeted me as I got off the plane. "

#wavewalker

"Those trips to London, were joyous, I loved the "welcome home" texts when I got off the plane. The time we spent together was precious, it left a pit in my stomach; the pain of what was lost for 3 decades and the feeling of coming home..."

#wavewalker

"I knew the feeling that she was Home, where we floated in the universe in our bubble of love, would never leave me. We had been through so much, and we remained deeply connected despite the years, I knew she was my other half..."
#wavewalker

"It hit me out of the blue. After decades of being stonewalled it was her that contacted me. All the times I almost did but didn't, and here she was. I could come home, finally.
What I didn't know was how vulnerable I was and how I was going to be used"
#wavewalker

"One says, ‘Africa', the other ‘Asia.'
We look at each other, giggles exploding into a roar of laughter. If love means putting someone else's desires ahead
of your own, then, for the first time in my life, I am loved. "

#wavewalker

"when we are together,
talking in our room, standing beside each other on the tube or sitting in the sun on our favourite step in Covent Garden, I
feel the way I did sitting on a beach gazing out at Wavewalker"

#wavewalker

"A part coming to terms with my past has meant reconnecting with ___, the
crew member from the boat who was my first love. Writing this book has brought us back together. Now we are back in touch I doubt we will ever lose contact again, we have been through too much together."

#wavewalker

“When you finish university, I am going to want to marry you, you know.”

#wavewalker

"I think I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. One part of me is still with Wavewalker, worrying about the dangers that she might face in Fiji. But most of me is here, enjoying the company of someone to whom it seems I can do no wrong. After years of keeping quiet, I feel free."

#wavewalker

"When we get to the barrier at departures, He puts his arms around me, rests
his forehead against mine and we both begin to cry. “Thank you for making me
so happy,” he says.
I look at him, tears running down my face, impossible to stop, and burst into
laughter.

#wavewalker

"“What if you meet a beautiful Australian girl when you’re back home and I’m
on the other side of the world?”
“I won’t. I love an English girl and that’s not going to change.”
#wavewwalker

" I have to find out if what I remember is the same as what he remembers and I need to find out if he is all right. I don't even know if he is alive although I somehow think I would know if he was dead. I don't know why but I am sure he is out there somewhere."

#wavewalker

"I also have a missing person in my life, someone who has been missing for far longer than I ever knew him. He is an essential part of my past as well so I have to find him too. So I have also been on a quest to find ....."

#wavewalker

"I'm sorry I made it so hard for you"

I really believed it too.

#wavewalker

"Do you love him?" she asks and I find myself saying "yes".

Very comforted by the thought that I kept everything. I still think about it every day, the first thing in the morning and at the end of the evening.
#wavewalker

"I had to find out if he remembered what I remembered."

#wavewalker

"Perhaps home wasn't somewhere, perhaps it was someone"

Still waiting.

#wavewalker