Incase anyones been wondering what my brother who used to also stream has been up to.. he's homophobic and transphobic now. 2026 has been rough y'all I could use some hugs

Steam decided to randomly uninstall hundreds of gigabytes of games from my computer 🫡
So I guess getting my games back is included in my getting ready to come back to streaming soon 👀

Guess who will most likely get ✨eyeball needles✨ in a few months 🫣
Diabetic since '99 and it shows 😅

I can even set the camera up so y'all can see him again
Not much gaming will get done with Sam and Frodo there though 😂 there's a reason they hangout somewhere else while I stream haha

Really want to try and get myself to stream sometime soon. I just need to get my emotions under control 😅 I really love my dog and I'm going to miss him so much but pausing my life to grieve isn't going to help my mental health or friendships

I'm finally 30 so I'm allowed to complain about my knees now

I don't mean to be ghosting everyone, I'm just going through it about my dog

Love y'all, make sure you're remembering your meds and hydrating

Happy 5th birthday Sam 🥰 gonna eat treats and watch A Dogs Purpose so he knows what to do 🥺😭

Me: wow Frodo has been so good at not eating everything, he doesn't have to go in the crate when no one's home :)

Frodo: y'know what I want to eat? The couch.

I trained Sam too well
He's allowed to get away with almost anything now but when he barks at nothing outside of the window he gets a few barks out then goes and lays down on his bed 🥺 sir you need to meet your bark quota you don't have as much time to get all your barking out anymore

He might get 3 more years, might get more, might get less

o7 to my dog Sam

The vet is supposed to call today with the results from Sam's lump I'm so nervous

Innocent lives are being ruined and taken. Dragged into the a rich man's game as less than pawns. How many lives will be taken before someone gets rid of the problem?
At least his health seems to be declining faster lately.

Anyways rant over, I don't want to get into too much trouble with my words.

Plus he wants to take the country I live in which is incredibly scary. There's something wrong with his head. The media censoring is wild, and effects us here too. This isnt the kind of history we wanted to see. If this is the stuff we are seeing, who knows how bad the things we don't see are

I know I don't generally post political stuff as I try to keep my space as a nice getaway from it because I know it stresses me out way too much, but I have to make sure there's no misunderstanding how I feel.

FUCK ICE
FUCK DONALD TRUMP

I feel intense rage for what's happening down there

The results from Sam's vet visit could come in any day now I'm so nervous 🥺

Random stream because idk why not ???
Going LIVE on Twitch with some Hytale !
Playing the world I've been on non stop since getting the game ! Gonna collect some more critters !
Just chill not chatting too much vibes c:

Sams surgery went well 🥰
It should take about a week to get the results of the lump they took out though so hopefully that comes back fine 🥺

This is only the third time ever that I've had Sam at the vet all day 🥺 I miss my boy

He didn't even look back at me when they took him 😂

Sam's surgery is tomorrow 🥺

What do you mean I can focus on what I'm doing and my main thoughts aren't being drowned out by a billion other thoughts 👁️👄👁️

Definitely looking forward to when I finish my holiday break and get back to streaming c: but with my new meds and Sam's surgery coming up this week, I'm going to focus on myself a little longer !
With Sam it's either nothing, or something really bad, and I am stressing hard about it

Starting my new meds today 🥳 wish me luck 🤞

Sam needs surgery 😥 he's got a lump in his bum that needs to be removed

Sam's been having some stuff going on, so he has a vet appointment this week
Safe to say I'm gonna be a bit not social while I wait to find out if he's ok

pic of paya at their streaming setup wearing a brown/red pashmina around their head

🌙 twitch.tv/paya111
last stream of the year!

Whoops forgot to mention no streams until probably this weekend c: busy with holiday stuff

Ok but is there an app that I change my pronouns on, that changes it everywhere because sometimes the gender be fluid y'know but no way am I gonna try to keep up with changing it on everything

Officially diagnosed with ADHD 🥳