my dad got his cinnamon nicotine chewy pouches confiscated ooooo naughty boy oooooo

theres so little graffiti down here no tag art is weird

bet theres a train depot somewhere

if he hadnt had a life threatening surgical complication an oncologist would be doing this explaining by now, tbh. but his current oncologist case lead is the surgical oncologist & honestly surgeons like patients best asleep lol

very grateful my brand of mental illness means i internalize a whole lot of medical field data and can research it without feeling overwhelmed

sepsis and emergency surgery dont mean anything without context like "what happened to make things go septic?" and "when do they do emergency surgery, when do they use the ICU?"

but understanding goes a long way to /him/ understanding why everyone was at a 10 of anxiety for him!!

i think today was the first i got my dad to understand how close he came to death. like how could he know he was out for most of it!! but also holy shit dude you almost died

ramps in grab bar in stepmoms phone fixed dad stable supplies present

booked a return flight!!!

i want to be back within the month tho, i want to be present for discharge again. but yayyyyy im going home in a few days yayyyy

he is a low risk (clear margin, low differentiated, no node spread) stage 2 colon cancer. of this im sure. and research says they arent even sure of a worthy benefit to chemo for that, given how damaging it is. so they dont usually do it.

huuuuuge relief to learn.

did research from path report on my dads tumor last night and im like 99.99999% sure he gets to avoid chemo

two carpenter bees. one is barely sticking her head out of the little hole bored in the wood shop rafters. another more early rising bee is hanging onto the wood outside the hole and nose to nose w her sister

this could bee us but

a rainbow colored inflatable alien perched in a japanese maple tree. my stepsister got it at ARC, my dad put it in the tree and it has lived there for a year or something it was all deflated but i got it back in shape

truly the most important home maintenance: inflating the alien

chugs sweet tea every chance

local delicacy

it does not look like he will need chemo.

i would like to come back in a like week when hes home again to check on them all and still need to do some modifications to the home for safety but i feel real relief and hope today. whew

a long and little bit overwhelming day down here, but we saw my dad in the rehab wing and he got up out of bed and walked on his own!! he cannot find golf on his tv, but i think sincerely the worst is over

i see my future and its fine if people keep communicating their feelings and considering what they mean

we brought him a jersey mikes sub and a root beer from a company called "stubborn"

dad recovering strength by the day 💪 absolutely had to bring him this soda

my dad is awful at befriending critters, just ignores em. so i have no doubt as to why every kitty at first was afraid of me!! i'm a slightly different version of my dad and acting FRIENDLY??? suspicious....

barn cat cuddles update: marge (twin of runt, the other short hair) let me pick her up and cuddle her while purring today.

4/5 kitties befriended. only the very shy grey tabby (sugar) is left and i think i only saw her once peeping at me from under the wood shop

i love her lil tiny pink snoot

suzy the long hair white & brown tabby barn cat, flopped on a floral rug looking pleased

she is squinting gently at the camera because i kept calling her name

pretty momma suzy

i do feel like dreamfall is the weakest book in the cat series but it is still a journey of character growth, just not as cool a one as Catspaw

the wisdom of dealing w prior traumas has served me very very well here tbh. id be wallowing in guilt instead of sprinkling a dash on myself otherwise rn

when i go home i heard ffxiv added windhust to the raid just for me. but they did it early bc they didnt know when id be done down here. the president of final fantasy told me this personally

i keep dropping fbombs forgetting im in the south and they carry more weight down here lol lmao fuck

stepmom has said if he walks out and shows up here she will pack up and go to her daughter's. she JUST got back from stress of his FIRST premature rehab exit landing her in the ER unable to breathe. i told her im in agreement.

where that would leave me, i cannot say. so. rough evening here.

now he is refusing to talk to any of us, but is where he is safe.

gotta do a shower grab bar install but gotta find the right tools in the wood shop first and it aint exactly tidy w labels in there lol

i woulda done it earlier in the week but he truly needed like 18hr a day attention and care. but still feels good to know these acts are gonna help.

its 72 f, im a new england boy now. too hot for me

its uhhhhhhh hot out there