* I didn’t notice until tonight we see it right after elphies birth right at the start. I was in the feels my bad lol

I saw wicked:for good last night and I’m rewatching the first one and I didn’t notice we see the green elixir bottle tonight after Elphoba’s birth scene

Also, I forgot I had this app. Ope.

It’s weird having a bday and then a few days later being sad about my mom’s passing date.

Like if I never had to see my bf’s ex ever again I would be the happiest.

Somehow trying to make things less bad made things bad. And I hate that sometimes I just can’t win.

Denver ‼️

So he’s perfect?!

I just took this this weekend in Colorado! Same vibes from far apart 🖤

Look at this spooky pic I took at the cabin this weekend! Photo skills not lost 🙌🏻🖤

In my saddest times I am always so lucky that the people I care about care about me. And life is hard and sometimes I don’t wanna; but how blessed am I for the people that ground me with respect and love the most at those times? I’m so very lucky, even in the darkest of darks. Easy thing to forget

Saw a n*^i fuck get arrested tonight so it’s gonna be a good night for sure. Thanks to the HQ staff 🖤

The guy spraying my apartment for spiders just also crop dusted the shit out if and it’s bad yall lol

Did I do my makeup today? Yes! Did I start crying again 5 min after applying said makeup? Also yes.

I know I’m lucky. Lucky I miss my mom. She was amazing. And I’m lucky for all the strong people and women who have held me up after. It’s been family, and friends, and friends moms. I am lucky, but I am still missing half of me. I miss my mom every day, and I know that is just part of my life now

What no one knows is despite progress, seeing my moms name on mail everyday eats and picks away at me. It sets me back. And I didn’t know where else to say that but here. I am doing my best, and it’s arguably not great, but that takes me back every time.

As of today I am going to try to take a selfie every day this year I think about it and am genuinely happy. Here’s the first one

I love you too, tons 🖤🖤

Love and miss you too friend 🖤

Hell maybe no one is even going to see this.

I haven’t been out or talked to anyone in a week and no one has even noticed. Pretty lonely feeling when I was at one of what I thought was my lowest feeling points already.

Sounds like Susan never forgets or forgives ray. #neighbors

Breakfast for lunch with the background soundtrack of my upstairs neighbors screaming at each other. Delightful

I feel like my apartment is holding me hostage. I had so many plans this weekend and of course I got suuuuuper sick Friday flipping night.

I feel that in my bones. We will get through it like we always do. But the struggle is still real and valid

Nothing babe. I have big spams of time like this too. I’m in one right now tbh

How lucky am I that a good amount of my gifts from friends this year had pictures of my mom and I? This year got harder for me than last year and it was nice knowing my people kept her a part of things. I’m so grateful for the ppl in my life 🖤 so very grateful.

Just watched joker foliè au déux and fuck me up fam. People get made for j def standing a villain arch but this one took an even deeper turn I didn’t see coming and this is how you remake something

I already miss Chicago and I’m still at o’hare