Making this really doesn't feel the same digitally 💕 Picture taken with daylight ~

#art #doodle #sketchbook #pencilcolors #psychedelic #rainbow #colorful

HER!

It is what it is, eventually, things gotta get better.

My current schedule is BOOKED with therapy.
Spravato: 2x week
TMS: 5x week
Therapy: 1-2x week
Psychiatry: 1-2x month

Not to mention...
Hospitalized: 3x in 18 months
PHP: 2x in 12 months
Medications: 3 currently for mental stuff.

I'm doing everything I can for my mental health. I'm not doing NOTHIN

Everyone deserves people at their funeral. Everyone deserves flowers at their grave. Nobody deserves to be alone in life or death. And there will be flowers for me too, I know it for a fact.

I think everyone deserves food, shelter, water, and safe living. I think everyone deserves to not fear homelessness or illness from poor living conditions. Nobody deserves dying in isolation.

Let the people you don't like survive. Let them live, even if you hate them. Let them live anyway.

Exploring the system one quiet morning at a time.

Ideal relationship dynamic

Needing to pop my neck so badly that the pain is making my eyeball hurt until I do it - shit that difficult to get even a doctor to understand about being chronically in pain.

Yes, the pain was DIFFERENT when I was big. But it did NOT go away when I lost the weight. It is still here! It is still bad! And now that I'm skinny, suddenly doctors take my pain seriously and my EDS got taken seriously. :) Wonderful look for doctors really, but in the end of the day I was noticed

I deal with a lot of chronic pain and issues that flare up more and more every year. Like even compared to last year, even 100 lbs heavier, I am in more pain N O W than I was then. Maybe I know my limits now that I'm the only one pushing them, but holy shit. I cannot do it all anymore like I used to

How do you break the "I can't hang out past like 6pm because my body is a piece of crumpled paper" to new friends who aren't disabled in the same or similar ways as you?

I even have to boot my irls out at 7pm because I too sleeby :<

Anything to make the suicidal thoughts stooooooooooooop. Anything to make the depression and anxiety leave me be.

Yay! Approved for TMS in conjunction with spravato. Giving it the Ole one-two punch. Ya kno.

I want to RP more often! Recently got back into it a tiny bit and its really fun :3

🐟 Like a fish outta water! 🐟

#nsfw

YEAH! YEAH ITS LOVING FRIENDS HOURS!

Friend of ours drew a surprise Gummi for us and it was on my phone bg and watch bg before I even put on my glasses for the morning.

I love my friends! I love my friends! I love my friends! I love my friends! I love my friends! I love my friends! I love my friends! I love my friends! I love my friends! I love my friends! I love my friends! I love my friends! I love my friends! HOLY FUCK I LOVE MY FRIENDS

AS LONG AS WE HAVE ANY COMMUNITY, THERE WILL ALWAYS BE PEOPLE WHO INTENTIONALLY DISRUPT THE BEAUTY WE COULD HAVE FOR MISPLACED PERSONAL GAIN. MY ADVICE, ALWAYS ENFORCE YOUR BOUNDARIES AND DONT HESITATE TO MOVE PAST BAD ENERGY. SOMETIMES CONFIDENT EXCLUSION IS THE SHARPEST KNIFE

Thanks to certain events in my life, my support system was obliterated over a year ago. I don't /have people/ at all. I don't even have family, they are all dead. What am I supposed to do EXCEPT feel like I need to escape this shit?

I've been to the psych ward three times in the past year and a half and it didn't help. It did more harm.

I've been in PHP, Tried 30 fucking medications, Psychotherapy, Spravato therapy, and treatments. Now I have a consult for TMS. I'm so fucking tired of trying everything for nothing to work/

I wish I didn't want to kms constantly again.

I be making enough plans for this shit its almost like I'm planning a wedding.

Every bad thing that happens to me makes me want to end my life exponentially more and more. I'm tired.

I made loving you a Blood Sport, I can't win. 🩸

I'm still your favorite regret.
You're still my weapon of choosing.

Poster to fight against ai. Visualized is a cave painting inspired horse, with text that reads "art has always been accessible"

I hear a lot of people saying that ai makes art accessible.. well I personally think that's bullshit- so I made this to drive my point home.
#regalsart #illustration #fuckai #digitalart

I've been doing 2-3 times a week therapy for a couples months and it's been so fucking healing. Making new friends who love me at my worst is also healing.

I just want to heal, as do I for everyone on here who reads this. <3 I love you. It's worth it to live.

A lot of being sober has to do with avoiding people, places and things that remind me of my addictions. I have had to remove a lot of things and people from my space for the sake of my safety, life and wellbeing. It's been a shitty two years but worth it to be safe and okay and even happy now. <3

Forgot to say anything buttttt I'm 2 years sober now. 🥹

i miss my fridge cigarettes but i must settle for fridge heroin because its $5 a case rn instead of $10