I want to put my fist through a wall. This feeling isn't going to go away any time soon

:/ ugh....

Everything's resurfacing at once. It has been for weeks

And now I've been set back even fucking further and I was just barely keeping myself afloat, I don't fucking know what to do

I'm fucking gay

And I've been fucking stomped so far into the ground by so many fucking people that I struggle to maintain a healthy connection to the few people I have left, that I genuinely love and care about

I'll pour my fucking heart and soul out for them and god I hope they'd do the same

"I was looking for you and your girlfriend last week"

God, the amount I have to fucking defend myself, because no one else listens

No one else pays attention
No one else cares

I haven't broken down like this in so long and I forgot how much it fucking hurts to feel like this and be alone

I'm so fucking tired and I can't fucking sleep because I just keep seeing the same fucking scene on repeat and I'm fucking scared

I don't want to be alone but I'm so fucking scared to reach

I mean, I tried

But I'm still so fucking scared to just say what I need because I know what I need is just out of reach

I fucking hate this

I don't know what to do

Why is it always me...

It's gonna be a while before I feel okay again. Please bear with me

That's def not normal 🫤

I feel like this needs to be said but I am NOT a flight risk right now

But I do really need someone because I'm having a really fucking hard time with this on my own, fuck

My mother can never know about this... I don't know what to do. Fuck... FUCK

Fuck I fucking hate myself

I'm sorry I'm being this depressing on main but... With context, anyone would understand

I'm so fucking mad at myself
And I don't trust myself to fucking talk about it so I'm just not

It'll be better in the morning, at least I think, but fuck, everything is settling in right now and this hurts so fucking badly

I don't know what to do

Kinda wish I never found my phone tonight

Furg is out. Probably cancelling Anthrocon too now. This has been the worst year for me so far

Realizing I have nobody I can call, nobody I can talk to, nothing... This is the worst thing I've felt in a long time

Alone, bruised, broken... Can't even cry, I'm just numb and I hurt

I just wanted to be happy dude... Why does everything just keep going horribly wrong for me?

I feel like I'm living a nightmare

Hell, saw wave maybe

Brain like a fuckin sine wave right now and I fuckin hate it

>:)

Pinup for Wakefield featuring his handsome new german shepherd, Rex!

Unfortunately this hunk got mistaken for a top at the club, but maybe you guys can still have some fun if his owner gives permission~

Getting a little out of hand here~

Watching the group chats pop TF off this afternoon lmao

Comic of the beetle from the cover of Massive Attack's "Mezzanine" meeting the crab from the cover of The Prodigy's "Fat of the Land".

Hi this joke is for me

Y'all I just wanna be a dumb fuckin dog 😩

Remember not to take candy from strangers

A good boy protecting his home