im leaning PF bc it's cheaper and there are more machines... but uuuggghhh idk 😭😭😭

if I sign up for the Y instead of PF I have the option of swimming if I want to. but once again... time... when would I even go... and the Y doesnt have as many machines so sometimes I have to wait around a lot and that sucks. but I like the locker rooms better.

I skate Tuesday and Thursday nights, and do yoga on Wednesdays. so maybe I'll do a push day monday morning before work, and a pull day Friday morning? and I wanted to start swimming at least once a week but that just feels so much harder for some reason...

i stopped going to the gym at the beginning of this year bc i decided i wanted to prioritize roller skating. but i miss lifting so much. and i love gaining muscle lol. so I need to figure out a way to fit that in again i think.

forever trying to figure out a weekly schedule that will allow me to enjoy All of my hobbies... but there's just not enough time

no thoughts head empty just roller skate

we are reaching unprecedented levels of eepy

ohhh I was wondering why it wasn't loading for me

ough so anxious... maybe a little more caffeine will help... surely nothing could go wrong...

no more appointments... please... make it stop...

got damn my girl can SLEEP

gotta smoke some weed and drink some coffee to balance my humors

keep thinking about getting more piercings and just trying to hide them at work...

it's weird using one programming language at work and then coming home and working on personal projects in different languages. i keep ending lines in semicolons even though I dont need to...

all i can think about is skating but everything is frozen and im stuck inside 😭😭

i fell skating last night and i wasn't even doing anything cool!! i was literally just going forward and lost my balance. but i fell how im supposed to at least, on my outer butt/thigh area. hurts like a bitch though. makes me really glad i didnt accidentally fall on my knees or smthn more delicate.

hello I forget to post on this thing even though I check it so frequently

love myself. love who ive become and who im becoming.

someone brought a puppy to work today and she was so cute and small and wanted to bite everyone. peace and love on planet earth.

I shpuld be sleeping in bc it's crispmasssssss and I have the day off but my body won't let me </3

meow meow meow. and also meow. thank you for coming to my ted talk.

i miss my fiancee :(

my camcorder dont work </3

the film i got was defective so i still dont know if my camcorder works or not </3

i wanna go home and play with my camera :(

it needs a new tape (hopefully thats all the issue is...) but i got my Sony handycam today

i love being alive 🥺

ordered myself a sony handycam and shes all i can think about..... soon...

The cover of MAKE ME BETTER features a feminine figure in the middle of a series of distorted concentric rings. The field is black, and the lettering, figure, and rings are all in bright hypercolor. Will Staehle is the artist who created this and I would die in battle for him

MAKE ME BETTER is my forthcoming novel about the horrors of community. It is about cults, wellness, control, and the things we will do to escape grief.

Sometimes it hurts to grow -- but your community believes that you can be made pure.

It comes out in May.

us.macmillan.com/books/978125...

this concludes today's haiku