Allism is a self-aggrandizement disorder and more broadly an epistemic disability where they have severe deficiencies in self awareness or the ability to construct an accurate reality based on evidence and metacognition.
I have relentless memories of having my disabilities punished and ignored in school. Teachers treated me with contempt when I was sick, overloaded, tired, or hurting, despite being a pleasant student who politely explained her needs.
It relentlessly bothers me that allistics think they "anticipate other people's needs" and "have empathy" when they've shown relentless cruelty, apathy, gaslighting and ostracism towards me when I was in pain, scared, tired or alone.
#autism
Agreed. When there is more than one interpretation of a given statement, I am not in the wrong for selecting an alternative interpretation. Especially if the person didn't even realize there was a valid alternative interpretation available.
That's not a sign of social deficit but of Double Empathy.
Watching people react to the "autistic rage" has been delightful, in a way.
It's time we start receding into our own communities & let neurotypical society bargain with us as a collective.
This way, we can take care of our own while avoiding exploitation.
Erasure is the ultimate exclusion from human existence.
#autism
Living under the genocidal erasure of Autistics is very stressful.
53rd crying session of the year.
Having a mental breakdown & crying after attempting laundry because nothing goes right, everything I own is broken because of poverty, I have no storage space, visitors keep interrupting me, & my chronic conditions only let me do half a task, & 16 years of NHS abuse plays in my brain the whole time.
Assuming my thoughts and feelings is Autphobic.
Ignoring what I say in favour of your imagination is Autphobic.
Another pointless day on this allistic planet. I genuinely don't want to be here anymore. Everything belongs to the allistics.
Can't sleep because of NHS bullying PTSD jerking me awake every time I try to fall asleep. I'm so tired of this. It happens every night. I spend hours every night trying to fall asleep.
"A Kind of Spark" is about an Autistic Kate Middleton.
"Autistic representation" that is economically unrealistic Southern crap is not accurate representation.
both, I am invisible, I am tortured by it
I often use the Blackpool incident as a reference point for my NHS experiences.
I am overwhelmingly more likely to get something closer to the "Blackpool experience" (patients being physically assaulted) than the Georgia Tennant experience (British celebrities write worshipful reviews of the NHS).
I've lost faith in human systems.
I've experienced too many catastrophic systemic failures.
I have cultivated a list of high profile bullying incidents in the NHS as a form of cathartic perspective taking.
The NHS is not a safe place. It's a life threatening hazard to anyone who isn't a wealthy abled white man.
Real inclusion starts with anticipating that Autistic girls exist.
I thought it was safe to seek healthcare from the NHS. I was wrong. Catastrophically wrong.
I'm having my 51st crying session of the year. I will need to update my crying spreadsheet.
I was trapped under 9 months of his ghosting, gaslighting and manipulation. I was helpless. Disrespected, disregarded, assassinated, disbelieved.
His political beliefs were more important than my Autistic health.
Reaching out for help is not supposed to be reciprocated with mental abuse.
Why was I trapped under 9 months of an arrogant man who abused his power as an Autism clinician?
Struggling with autism while the healthcare system and various services actively try to make your life impossible to live, feels like being persecuted to death.
#ActuallyAutistic
A friendly reminder - nearly all research on autism typically involves autistics in distress or receiving insufficient support.
Most diagnoses of autism occur during times of distress or when others are distressed by them.
Parental intentions are moot if the support is insufficient or improper.
49th crying session of 2026.
Crying session spreadsheet has been updated.
I haven't had a single peaceful sleep since 2023. I have flashbacks of NHS bullying constantly. It takes me several attempts to fall asleep and it's the first thing I remember when I wake up.
They've stolen peace from me.
#autism
thank you for the effort but I have no carer to do this for me, I don't have the capacity to go through a process and it's not safe to complain because it will reach the team who abused me and the clinician will retaliate against me/my medical record
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1. bed
2. stim foods
3. internet
4. toilet
Can't wash myself.
Can't socialise.
Can't study.
Nobody reads me correctly.
Apraxia gives me epistemic PTSD.
I feel inhuman. I'm alien.