Exfoliating is underrated

Is this just what I am? Just a husk powerless to change my future? I feel like I can't do hard things anymore. I'm so tired. The idea of going back to school and starting from nothing makes me depressed too.

Even if I did get a job, it'd still be considered low income for like 10 years. I don't think I can stay here. But I'm not sure I have the means to go anywhere else.

I'm getting old now too. I'm about ready to give up any dreams of living a peaceful stable job. At least in my area. It's probably pretty likely that I'll love away in the next few years. I can't afford anything here.

When you give it all and there's nothing to show you can't help but wonder what you did wrong. I want to go away and just live in a place where career and money are deemphaised but I don't feel like I can control my own life right now. Sometimes I feel like I'm just waiting for someone to save me.

Idk just feel like sad posting.

I've been frozen lately. Paralyzed by burnout. I'm tired but people will only say I worked hard if there is something to show. I feel like I'm only valuable if I have a job. It's like society doesn't want me. My skills aren't enough to warrent my life.