i crave people to know them

perhaps i will use this account to post OC doodles

Here I am. Bjluesky is also where I post selfies

Anyway that's my update. Blue sky is apparently where I just vent about mental health stuff cuz no one follows me here basically haha

But like now I'm just at work sitting at my desk with my heart rate all high about ??? Idk ??? But my brain is like !!!!!! Sweat about it !!!!!!!

I'm trying to see how sustainable it is to be without them at the moment especially since I started going to the gym which definitely helps the anxiety. The anxiety also fuels going to the gym which is a good loop.

I've been dealing with some pretty intense social/general anxiety lately, I'm pretty sure partially due to me going off my meds completely for the first time in 7 years

I think I don't like this app

I'm snervous

My birthday was today! Yippee!!!

Progress on the memorial painting

Finished the sketch for this memorial painting of an old friend from high school who passed away. Very nervous to paint this but super happy with it so far

Juniper berry gets another job lead

Juniper berry gets a job lead

Sweet Little Blossom developments

My refills ran out on my Lexapro and apparently my doctor stopped practicing at the office I go to almost a year ago and no one told me and since I turn 26 in a few weeks I can't find a new doc until my new insurance kicks in and anyway I am going through withdrawal :-)))

Recent pic of me going to get a sandwich

I hate when I wake up thinking it's Saturday and get excited to keep sleeping but then realize I actually do have to wake up and go to work

Some sketches from today

Feeling very meh and bleh today

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Anyway that's the videogame check-in for today. Time to stop procrastinating and do dishes

I just. If you're gonna make me remember a glossary of terms and proper nouns at least make the dialogue engaging at all PLEASE I think this game is FUN and PRETTY but the words I have to read while playing it make my mind numb

Ben saw me playing a level and was like "is that enemy the fleschmancer?" And I was like "no that's the dweller of woe" how are they connected? Uh idk one is the evil overlord I think idk man

This is why I rarely gravitate toward story heavy videogames, and especially fantasy or sci-fi... I just can't with all these proper nouns

Man I've posted about it on like every platform but I cannot get over how dead the writing in sea of stars is!!!

What do you see when you see a bird? Is it the grace of its flight? The intelligence in its gaze? The sharpness of its beak? The softness of its down? Each of us has been gifted a way of seeing birds, unique to our eye alone. When we are in the woods together, I can see my bird, but not yours.

But what if we draw our birds for each other? And the next time either of us is in the woods, we find our capacity to see has grown? Your drawing can teach me to notice strength, softness, swiftness, grace, I otherwise would miss. It does not need to be a "good" drawing. It has energy and life simply because it is yours.

What abundance, to be surrounded by the drawings of other people! Each overlapping in ways, but at their core, inherently unique. Each one, in its own small way, the gift of sight. Making our perception of the world a little sharper, brighter, deeper.

Ours is an age where, increasingly, capital would like to teach us how to see birds. Smooth, flat, digestible. But real nourishment will always come from each other. I want to see birds the way people do. I want to see birds the way you do.

A 4 page comic about drawing, made for the Portland Public Library's new exhibition, "Why We Make Comics: Reflections on Storytelling"

If you live in Portland ME, you can see this comic, as well as 3 others by other cartoonists, on display starting October 6! www.portlandlibrary.com/lewis-gallery/

Wash Your Hands

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An illustration of a handshake between a human and a fucked up AI monstrosity with the caption " you want us to respect art that wasn't worth the effort to draw?"

if this makes AI people mad it's not because of the message it's because I had an idea and drew it