„Fuck what I deserve. What about what I want?“
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“What you hold onto is less important than the act of holding on itself. It’s so easy to get lost in ourselves and this world. Sometimes you need to find your way back one tiny miracle at a time.”
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#allforthegame #aftg #reneewalker #reneewalkeraftg #fanart #digialart #drawing #painting

ok but. Jean doesn't even really dare to look at someone too longb(aka check then out), because he's scared of the consequences he's used to.
in the next book I need there to be a scene where he's allowed to look at and appreciate Jeremy as much as he wants to, without anything else happening. pls

finished the current infinity nikki inkville quest. that was such a beautiful story. and so gay. so damn gay and I loved every second of it. also cried several times. we literally get a red band of fate as a gift at the end. damn.

still haven't processed all of tsc and tgr, but what I just had to think about again was that Kevin threw away his public persona for a sec to defend jean during the interview and also stated his honest opinion on the situation without sugarcoating it. idk. not gonna leave my brain any time soon

actually no. I stand by the statement that it's Kevin coded. the song I mean. and the imagery fits both of them for different reasons

if she's anything to him (other than a friend) she's a beard! to protect him in the nest! THERE. I can accept that. and I will go with that until I get unrefutable proof of the opposite. which I then will complain about nonstop. but it's just not gonna happen. ITS NOT!

and I need Kevin to put that part of himself behind him! I get that he needs her to talk about shit because Neil and Jean just refuse to do that (!!!) and he has noone else who'd even slightly understand. but thats it! fuck the ec. from the books alone I just cannot imagine them together.

he hasn't seemed interested in her once and her visits always had a motive other than going to see him! putting the grooming aspect aside (which - if Jean likes her I cannot actually imagine her getting with a high-school aged Kevin. I call bullshit) she's still a Raven at heart

also: I have so many fucking thoughts about Kevin. the fucker knew about andreil as soon as Wymack knew. I swear! he was there during all the moments wymack was and just quietly observing them! I also don't believe in his relationship with thea. they weren't in contact for over a year after he fled!

ok so apparently it's also supposed to be a trilogy? God damn i got scared for a sec there.

fuck a prequel. I don't want to hear any more about the nest! I need to know how Jeremy and Jean progress! How Jeremy and his family evolve! How the foxes tackle the new season!! I NEED ANSWERS!!!

nothing has been resolved!!!

a woman wearing a headband and earrings says what do you mean ALT: a woman wearing a headband and earrings says what do you mean

what do you mean im done with the Golden Raven? WHAT DO YOU MEAN?!

even without reading tsc and tgr.. the whole drake thing?? I guess you could call that a means to an end, but he was obviously enjoying the thought of hurting Andrew that way.

ok but like. how are people saying Riko spitting in Neil's mouth didn't have a sexual component to it, knowing what he did to Jean and some other ravens? yeah he didn't do most of that himself but he orchestrated it?!

finished the Sunshine Court. thank God for Neil Josten. my hero. very interesting to get to see him from an outside perspective!

on a more lighthearted note. I love how literally everyone describes Kevin as a Diva. amazing. incredible! XD

also saw someone draw that (the drowning part) recently so probably won't do it. didn't realise how literal it is for Jean though until today.

you know what's funny? I wanted to draw a piece about Kevin trying not to drown (metaphorically) inspired by the song Damocles by Sleep Token. I now realise that that's Jeans song and visual. goodness.

I'm halfway through the sunshine court and have basically been crying nonstop. that poor guy.

maybe it's worse for me because I went in blind and was convinced Kevin was gonna be the love interest up until the end of the first book.. but then he just disappeared into the background. I feel like Neil holds him in incredible high regard but kind of blocks him out emotionally?

can I just say. after reading the first aftg trilogy twice now (still haven't read the others).. Kevin had such a strong start but in the end he felt really washed out and like an afterthought half of the time. GIVE ME MORE DEBTH ON THE BOI! and free him from this groomer while we're at it.

another one for the photo wall✨️
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omg those are so cute!!

how tf is tiktok the platform my art is doing the best on? XD

Yeah, I'm all you need, I'ma be your idol.
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I'm glad I can finally kind of predict under which circumstances I get a migraine. but that doesn't mean I can avoid it at all times :<

still waiting. there have been updates but billing hasn't resumed yet. I'm exercising so much patience here

how do artists not constantly change their profile pics to their latest piece?