sometimes i forget it does in fact get hotter than 30C in other places. genuinely how do you breathe above that, it's like inhaling the air from the oven atp

so i just did the conversion math on that and wdym you can...just like exist at that temp holy SHIT 😭😭

goddamn i think i would melt good luck man 😭

i feel gross lol

accidentally took a 5 hour nap

im so exhausted. gonna do my dishes and then take a nap

love and hate my makeup mustache. i love it because it looks like i have facial hair but also hate it because it reminds me i don't actually have facial hair

would've taken better pics but im too lazy to censor my face. so awkward angle it is lol

idk how to pose okay. thumbs in the pockets just feels masc to me alr

been experimenting w packing for the first time in a few years, felt pretty good in this fit

false alarm. i went more gnc and the guy was very nice actually. the vibes were "idgaf, can u work a cash register?" 10/10

when it's hot and you wanna wear a tank top but the look in your dads eyes when he sees your scars makes you feel sick to your stomach so you never let you shoulders or biceps show

we have reached the "i am genuinely tweaking" state of sleep deprivation boys im gonna go insane

any time i try and dress nice i just end up looking like a masc lesbian. no shade but i'm a dude 😭god i need to get on T faster PLEASEEEEE i need to open my mouth and not have the most fem voice known to man to come out

i'm dressed up like a woman and my body doesn't feel like mine

feeling safer doing interviews dressed fem because then at least i look like an adult and not a 14 year old boy

dysphoria is killing me. life sucks

things are losing their flavour. that feeling is back. i don't wanna be here anymore but i don't have a choice, i have to stay. so i will persist numbly

sorry for all the trauma posting lol i'm thinking too hard

me being messed up after letting my ex mess me up. mfw consequences

nevermind! coffee and chips i bought last night because i am genuinely scared to leave my house

i don't wanna leave the house anymore because now im scared for no reason i'll run into my ex and have a panic attack. bruh

im so tired holy shit dude. i feel like i'm going to pass the fuck out

thinking about how if my parents personalities were switched i probably would've grown up in foster care or with a relative or some shit :/

monday

been eating like shit lately but also yippeee sugar makes my brain make the happy chemicals

so meal plan today is uhhhh monster and vape. and perhaps...boston cream doughnut if i can afford it

probably gonna breakdown again tn but thats future me's problem

i'm okay now guys 👍🏼

oh that feels very ironic given how i'm feeling rn 🧍🏻

yes i know i need therapy. but yk what they say, men will do anything but go to therapy