my other rules:
- cal limit is for intake only cals burned mean nothing here
- 75g of protien min
- 10k steps everyday

hsgd 2026
start - jan 1st
end - march 2nd

happy new year guys 💖💖

i always forget how much like relief sh gives me and then i do it again and remember why it was my main form of emotional regulation for like five years lol

failed 😋

literally most pathetic thing about my life is if i killed myself tonight the only people who would care are my parents and my fucking job

my favorite game of the year is starting!! is called will i make to jan 1st with out killing myself or severely self harming? 🎉🎉

feeling like morrissey fr rn

made myself some congee 💖 on a comfort food lockdown for the time being

LOL i stressed so bad and i just looked at the class rubric and given how much the final counts for in the final grade and my grades on every other assignment i could literally turn in nothing and pass 🤪

thank you❤️

thank you❤️

i have a final paper due at 8am that i completely forgot about and i like genuinely dont care! school was such a stupid idea i cant believe i talked myself into it

thank you❤️

thank you❤️

thank you ❤️

and i might not be able to go down for her viewing bc im suppose to start claires next week. fml

i dont really know how to feel right now. this is the first death of a close family member ive ever had to deal with. but honestly she hadnt been the grandmother i remembered for a very long time. i dont reallly know what to do or feel.

my gradmother died this morning....

thank you 💖💖

being at home 24/7 has literally been so detrimental to me 😞

and restricting is sososo much easier for me when im working im literally so up rn

💖💖

GUESS WHO GOT A JOBBBBBBB 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

update! i threw up 😀

but hey at least im not eating <3

periods cramps making me nauseous so i dont eat -> eventually i get so hungry that my hunger is also making me nauseous -> i am in hell

YA GIRL FINALLY HAS A JOB INTERVIEW YAYYYYY🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

my mom decided she didnt want to drive to see family is the best thing ever tbh

talked my mom into going go the movies tmr after the parade so i just need to not eat before the movies + we'll get popcorn but ill just hopefully control myself and so ill be able to fast until dinner 😊