this is surely an unpopular opinion on bluesky but you are actually defined by more than whatever random ailment you have. (and yes, EVERYONE has one.)

sigh. i said if i hit my GW by 4/20 then i would do a little celebration. ):

now i guess i will just go to the store and buy more protein bars. 🥀 #edbsky

there is a certain subset of bsky users who considers one of their defining personality traits to be “tired” and that is wild to me

i feel like my ex is on bsky and i wish i could find him just for my own peace of mind (but also cause morbid curiosity)

i do not wish to talk to him. but i like to keep tabs on him since he is a predator.

what is the point of this bot?

have i just been logging calories that inaccurately?? i have tried to be “generous” with everything i log and estimate high. and supposedly i have not gone over my cap once the entire time i have been gone.

i am on my period.. maybe that is why. 😞 i hope ..

finally got brave enough to take my weight and i have not lost any weight on vacation :’(

feels bad

good morning!

i did not sleep so much.. half of me wants to go back to bed, but the other half wants to be productive and take advantage of being up to get things done~

i think i have NO PLANS today 😍 so maybe i can just feel sorry for myself and read book about space 💚

maybe go to the graveyard

today, i will take my weight for the first time in two weeks. to see if i can hit my GW by monday as planned

^w^;;; nervous.

my phone did announce this morning that it detected a trend and that i have been taking 2.6k average steps/day more the entire time i have been here. feels nice

#edbsky

good morning ❇️🪲🦚

are you having a nice day?

शायद मैं इसे इस तरह कहने की कोशिश करूँगा 🙈

it is the weekend! and i will try to get many things done today!! and not dwell on the thinggs that make me sad !!

i hope that the natural disasters do stop. it has been a little difficult with mother nature this week~

i feel really empty

i think i ruined it again

i feel like i am sitting outside in the wind with my hands cupped full of sand, and the wind keeps whipping around me and the sand keeps blowing from between my fingers. only i am the sand.

these plans do not include me

i was not invited, nor would it be feasible for me

is it meant to be a hint for me to take ?

he doesn’t even want to do a week long job when it is offered to him but i guess this is okay ¿¿

the boy is manic, he is planning to buy multiple european properties and spend the next idk how many years jet setting back and forth to renovate and then rent them out. in countries where he is not a citizen.

it’s okay.. maybe he does not want me to know. i am glad he is okay, thank you for telling me. 💚

do you know if ethan is okay? it seems he nuked his account ¿

hot candle wax is kind of fun. it hurts like hell but doesn’t leave lasting marks. i used to do that when i couldn’t afford to have visible marks.

now i just keep crying every time i think about him. i am trying to be very brave and cheer him on and support him in realizing his dreams.

who am i to stop him

i value my privacy. i like to be alone. i do not want us to move in together. i am always the one keeping him at arm’s length

so i guess now i have pushed him away

i wish i was not like this …

i talked to the boyfriend last night and he is planning to stop working, move back in with his parents (hours away from where we are now), and then spend ~6mos traveling to asia and europe.

😥

that makes me feel really sad and empty. but i guess it is my fault for being so wishy washy.

i even forgot my churuya in my morning post -w-;; too sleepy …

good morning 🍃

i have been in the ether the past few days. lots of travel, lots of drugg, lots of time with friends.

tired and trying to do some work today, struggling to focus

i did take so many steps and ate so little food. i am having a maple candy with my cofe and i do not even feel guilty~

still don’t really understand trains but i understand a little bitt better now

i walked a long way in the woods, and i found a fallen tree where i could sit and eat my blueberries and cheese and almonds

so weird to hear only birds

this team mystic guy is sooo angry that i keep taking his gym. SORRY IT IS MY GYM THIS WEEK

my pants are too lose so i have to pull them waaaaay up over my stomach like an old man so the bottoms don’t get muddy lmfao

#edwins

i forgot i did bring my bluetooth speaker ;w;

i can never use it at home bc the walls are soo thin. now i can play all the worst music

going to pack a picnic lunch and a huge joint and put on a baseball cap and hike deep into the forest and blast insane clown posse while i get absolutely ripped

if i can just learn “autumn leaves” before i leave that will make me happy

i try every hobby and i am mediocre at it, and then i do not want to put in the work to get better and i give up

that is why i own a guitar and a ukelele and a steel drum and knitting needles and crochet hooks and clay and resin and gouache and origami paper and watercolors and wax beads and char-