Posts by nilah 🩷✨ edbsky
half my jeans don't fit anymore
i really need to lose all this
I’m going to need an insane amount of caffeine to get through today
Seeing all of these damaging things over the past few days has made me feel desperate. Please don’t start doing drugs to lose weight, please, please everyone, it never ends well and it’s effectively a pitch black road you can’t find the end of, it’s a hole to the core of the earth
I just want to eat why the fuck am I always thinking of eating
trying to balance my e4tin disorder and my responsibilities as an "adult" and my social life - RELEASE ME
gn!
i fell off and had a mini mental breakdown. im a loser and dont deserve to live or whatever but we move because failure isnt an option (and its embarrassing to die fat)
omg i'm not alone!! hoping n praying when i get skinny the fat distribution will go crazy
real!! i wish i cld feel good about it but i dream of being doll-like so it's the opposite of what i want
It is so annoying!! I feel like the only nice part is ik when i lose weight i should have a sexy figure ✨️
I promise u if ur calves look muscular, the gym/fit guys are envious and/or find it attractive idk of it's a fit guy thing tho cus the guys i hang w are fit fit 😭
Tbh I feel like it ties into how mainstream feminism has taken this weird turn back into lwk being misogynist
Does anyone else feels like this?
I wish I could function without basically negating something necessary — anytime I do well in one way i struggle in every other way
I feel like such a loser rn
Forcing myself to study to be able to eat food <3, 6hrs more to go.
majority of my fat is on my legs and arms cus why am i overweight seeing my collarbones and sometimes outline of my ribs.
like my calf and thigh fat is really ridiculous, every guy mentions my calves and everytime i wanna k m s
i don't like it, it just too close that it makes me uncomfy. i don't think ppl who consume it are like weirdo pedos or sumn but i cant help but feel weird about ppl consuming it - it's a gray area for me that i stay farrrr away from
16/04/26
🥥 76.3kg
🥥1437kcal - 85kcal = 1352kcal
15/04/26
🥥 76.3kg
didn't track
14/04/26
🥥 76.3kg (-0.7kg)
didn't track
13/04/26
🥥77kg
🥥1717kcals - 207kcals - 1510kcals
12/04/26
🥥77kg
🥥1722kcals - 340kcals = 1382kcals
just weighed myself despite eating 600kc earlier today cus i was scared i gained from not tracking the last two day and i didn't !!
tmrw i'll check to see before i eat and hopefully i lost 😋 hoping and praying and begging that i can lose 10lbs before the end of the month (delusional)
Like having someone be terrible to me and just controlling me like a puppet when I'm struggling mentally actually grounds me 😭
Sometimes i just want a guy who would be really sweet but also just really mean, controlling and make every decision for me
I used to, now I just shut down and isolate. I hope it gets better babes <3