He blames YouTube shorts… I blame my will to go on…

The Helper Who Can't Be Helped #spoony #spoonful #wistfulspoony YouTube video by wistful spoony

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This spoon thing is haunting my feed…

… I miss having dogs that would be so much calmer in having their claws trimmed…

Got a coworker going to see a Glitch panel at some nearby convention.

That sounds fun… I told him to record it for me…

I’m going to get my eyes dilated tomorrow for the first time in my life. Damn paintbrush smudge looking feeling in my right eye.

I’m getting a lot of vrchat shorts on YouTube again and it’s making me miss playing characters a lot…

Hon, I’m from Vegas. People from Vegas are born one way or the other

Raised Christian, kinda just fell out being that my mother never followed the teachings. Never liked the idea that I was made to be a certain way for people.

I ain’t one to shame a belief, but i definitely won’t stand for any controlling nature.

Shit I’m extra called out.

I’m going to be changing my last name to his last name…

Every bit of me is fighting to stop this but it’s almost been a year of us being married. He’s not abusive…

Why do I abuse myself…?

… I remember the days when I was on vrchat staring down over the edge of a building…

I drew a little pink dot in my vision of where I’d land…

Every single one of my ocs and characters I love have stared down from that rooftop ever since in my head…

I really can’t stop thinking about comparing my relationship with my husband as Caine and Ragatha…

… I want to sleep with someone who has the same mind as me…

I’m enjoying the clash of past theories. “Jax is an npc” “One of them will take over for Caine” “The Abstractions are still alive and in the circus“

I am not asking for spoilers btw. I ain’t seen shit and I ain’t afraid to strangle people who do spoil it.

Alright, glad to be reminded of this. I just want to say fuck you to the livestream brainrot that have not left me ever since I made this post.

Legit almost 30 why am I still seeing Sprunki?

[EPILEPSY WARNING] FNF Anemaniac but with parts from some remixes of it (with lyrics) YouTube video by Anon

I hate that I can’t imagine myself as myself, but I can see myself smiling as these creatures I’ll never reach to be.

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I feel like I put myself into the life I wanted least… it’s all my fault and yet I don’t know how i did it.

I just ruin everything for myself….

I'm About to Lose It, but I'm Doing Fine YouTube video by Frugit - Topic

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Ooh. A new song.

Thank you algorithm.

Depression fucking sucks…

You kept the sticker #spoony #wistfulspoont #wf YouTube video by wistful spoony

My husband managed to homebrew a new Wii my mom bought for cheap and he’s making it his new hobby

Anyways, a spoon is calling me out…
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I want to draw how I’m feeling… I don’t want my husband to see…

… god I miss everything…

I really do miss being in character so bad… I miss feeling like I could be an inspiration…

I feel like I already had children… and I’m scared to actually have any of my own…

Still alive. Still questioning my life…

Break Your Heart x I Like It - Taio Cruz & Ludacris vs Alesso & Nate Smith YouTube video by Healex

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Getting called out by new mashups. I’m a god damn heart breaker and somehow people love me…

… on an “internet detox” (He lost his wallet and got sick so he chose to blame me.)

Also, need to ask my doctor about getting tested for ADD. I’m done with assuming…

… i wish I wasn’t the last generation able to make friends.

I hate this feeling like I’ve just been made to serve others… I don’t think I had a childhood…

Trying not to kin Ragatha so hard, but I’ve gotten this line “Like the child stitched in my woven heart” for implying childhood trauma in being the early “mature” kid…

YOOO! NO JURY DUTY NOW!

Oh fuck. Jury duty is in two days.