I didn't think artists could draw such perfection but god DAMN

I can't do or say much else. I pray when this ends, it ends quickly. Whether I get a job and live happy, or.

I don't know my future. I don't even know my present. I feel like I've lost who I am. What am I going to do?

To anyone and everyone I've ever hurt. I'm sorry. I didn't want to hurt you, no really, I mean it. But the way I acted sure didn't help. And I did hurt you. And I'm sorry.

These past couple of weeks I've slowly been cracking, and a couple days ago I broke fully. I fully believe I deserve this for being a shitty person when I was a teen. I was an awful person, and even though I've changed, I haven't gotten my karma. And I believe this is it.

I figured I'd give an update about where I am. Where I've been. And where I'll go. And the honest damn truth is I don't know.

The past 9 months have been so torturous. I've been unable to find a job. And I'm so behind and so in debt that I feel like I'm currently a net negative to people.

And so, it's christmas. I won't post anything too dark or gloomy, to give everyone a nice break this time of year. For all my friends, associates, former coworkers, former friends, exes, everyone; I care about you all. I care about each and every one of you. Please, take care od yourselves. Be good.

One thing I didn't expect to feel so early was drained. I never thought this would be first. But yeah, I do not feel like doing anything. At all. Even eat. Hopefully I can get up at some point.

I will document these days. I will make sure the world knows how I feel, what I'm doing. Maybe who I am.

I'm scared.
I don't want to be scared.
I want to live.

But I know this is it.

God help me.

In effect, this will be my death. No, I won't actually die, but I will be unable to bounce back from this development in my life. There is simply no way to get back on to the ladder once you've fallen off. The rung is too high to reach. And my fingers are slipping.

That was 8 months ago. And despite all other help I have received, it wasn't enough. Every lucky break was simply that: a break. In the first week of January, one week before my birthday, I will be homeless. And knowing how well that usually goes, I am terrified.

The job market currently is terrible. There are no excuses for how many interviews come out of applications (about 1%, so it seems) and how many interviews lead to job offers. So, the impossible task was set. Find a job that could help keep my apartment. Simple enough, shouldn't be a problem.

I had a (seemingly) steady job to back me up, and everything seemed to go well. That was, of course, until a few odd details surfaced. To keep that long story short, it became clear that I could not work at that job anymore. And so, I was thrust back into the job market.

It started out with me moving out of my parent's house about a year ago. I had to get out for a variety of reasons, most importantly, there was simply no physical room there for me. I could not sleep and live comfortably, nor could I live with a good conscious mind there.

Hi there. My name is Permatemp, real name Blake Kleinman. In hopes that I can illustrate a problem I've been having, I am going to detail my current situation, and provide my thoughts on it. Let's get the main headline out of the way, first.

In 7 days, I will be without a home.

Poetry but it's made with distasteful topics

I too
Drop in the bowl
Where many have been before
Only then to be
Flushed

Sometimes I do eat the whole apple still even though we're not in middle school anymore send skeet

I meant to reply to this earlier but these two posts were very helpful, and I'm doing it. Tonight, I watch Doctor Who!!! Thank you!

Oh yeah, uh, so people who enjoy Doctor Who; what should I start with if I were to get into the series? The very first episodes? Newer? Somewhere in between? Give me some ideas...

Oh hey it's me! I said I would be doing a thread on the treasure hunt. Well I had it all typed out, then I kinda lost it all. So here's the cliff's notes.

I love puzzles, I love money, and I am ready to hopefully start solving some puzzles and getting some treasure. Maybe. We'll see ;3

Hello! This will be my first... skeet? That's what we're calling it yeah? First Skeet in a long line of Skeets where I will be documenting my journey to finding one of the treasure boxes in "There's Treasure Inside" by Jon Collins-Black. This firsf one will be a thread on how and why I am doing this

Let's go skeeting!

Stephanie Mabey - The Zombie Song / Electro Swing Cover YouTube video by Lime

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Considering Twitter will nuke itself in about 0.2 phemtoseconds, I call it a win/win.

Sometimes I wonder if the Wiki Wiki Wild Wild Wild Wild Wild West was even a real direction at all *boing*