I used to edit myself
to be easier to love.
Now I let people meet me
where I actually live.
am not who I was.
But every version of me
still watches
from somewhere inside.

I am calmer now, but I miss who I was when I was louder

I think deeply, but I live quietly. The world rarely notices the difference.

30 yrs

My pet snake . She’s a jungle python approximately 7 feet long and 26 years old . I got her when I was 7

I used to want to be seen.

Now I only care
about being understood

and even that,
only by a few.

The darkness within me is deliberate.
It waits.
It watches.
It knows when to speak
and when to let the world guess.

I was there for this ! One of the best nights of my life

My camera roll says different hehe

If you’ve ever felt like you don’t fit anywhere,
it’s usually because you’re meant to see differently, not blend in.

Desire

Desire is the thing
you pretend not to feel
until it notices you.

It doesn’t ask.
It waits.

I didn’t raise my voice to be cruel.
I raised it because my calm was ignored.

My words were soft,
but softness wasn’t heard
until it broke into sound.

I’m not angry
I’m exhausted
from having to shout
just to matter.

My darkness is disciplined.
It learned restraint
after learning consequence.

I think in layers,
not lines.

While others skim the surface,
I’m listening to what isn’t said.

We have met quite a few times . Does that count ?

I am not untouched by darkness
I am shaped by it,
and I carry its lessons
like a quiet blade.

Whippet cross with dingo and Australian cattle dog.

I carry my history
like a low tide

still present,
still shaping the shore,
but no longer drowning me.

I am not who I was,
but she still lives in me.

I have lived many lives inside this one
some quiet,
some unrecognisable,
all mine.

I’m more interested in truth than performance.

My true self .

December 2025 .

Absolutely incredible moment of my life I will never forget. Sitting with school children in Africa as they sign and dance

First time I landed a plane by myself . Pretty proud of it

Paradise

My baby

Ankor wat .