i'm on the verge of something but not sure what it is yet

thinking about how i would decorate my underground bunker

and-of-semester faculty critique next week and i'm actually foaming at the mouth to get my work picked apart

for better or worse i'm forever in love with someone back in california. circumstances caused us to part ways but maybe someday they'll bring us back together

god forbid grad school be hard!!!!

amazing how something has been on our calendar literally all semester and someone in my class is just now complaining about it and asking to cancel an event that all 22 of us are expected to participate in

just realized i already posted this a month ago. but i had almost 4 hours of critique yesterday and all i can think about is how to make my art even weirder

the continual encouragement i have been receiving in grad school to get crazier and more conspiratorial is what i've craved my entire life

i missed an entire week of classes and it feels so good to be back, especially when i say something that my professor gets really excited about

watching a ted bundy documentary as a palate cleanser for the ed gein show, as one does

watching The Evil Dead. and then I will watch Evil Dead II

i started this last night and it's borderline unwatchable. absolute garbage. but now i have no choice but to watch the entire thing.

omgggg i gotta make this soon, im desperate for low effort recipes like this

the professors at my grad program are telling me "you should get crazier" and "lean into your weird conspiracy thing." this is exactly the encouragement i've been looking for

(explaining my search history to my assigned federal agent): i looked up manson for photo reference, so i could draw him. oh, squeaky? no, i just looked her up so i could look at her. uh huh. oh that one? i googled khalid sheikh mohammed bc my friend sent me a tiktok of the costco family on a plane

i wonder if i should have the same sense of urgency re: the impending winter season as the squirrels in my yard, who are going totally bonkers

if your parents' jobs are enough to get you recruited by the deep state i'm frankly offended that i have never been contacted. these shadowy organizations need more representation in the arts.

LOL

being back in school kicks so much ass. i don't have to worry about much of anything at all except making art

ryan murphy now making a steamy ed gein show is the funniest thing i've heard all week

can't stop thinking about how someone in my MFA cohort called the single coveted private studio "the one for the masturbators" we hardly know each other but we're on the same level.

today i went to a power electronics show in ridgewood. living the new york experience.

downloading tinder to try to meet people in my new locality and immediately deleting the app when someone's profile includes a photo of themselves with mark wahlberg

writing postcards to my friends back in california

taking as many baths as i can before i have to live with a roommate again