i am feeling very sluggish

shuake au where ren constantly sends goro pictures of morgana and goro saves all of them in secret (i'm using this excuse to photodump pictures of my cat)

tl;dr: interests never die down! they always come in waves. strong, weak, then strong again, and then weak.

through all of this, focus on enjoying yourself and creating + consuming the content you yourself enjoy

will produce the same content that i've always been happily consuming. and since people do get itches sometimes (e.g. being out of the p5 fandom for so long that you start missing it), it's always good to anticipate their return, if only for a moment.

normal, especially if you've been friends with those people and your relationship was formed largely because of your mutual love for shuake.

on my part, i acknowledge that their interest has shifted, be sad about it for a week or so. i always remember that there will be new people that -

not a fandom oldhead (i think), but i've been in so many fandoms since the age of 10

i do understand this feeling. both irl and online i have experiences of people telling me that they're no longer in a particular fandom that i'm still in.

after all these years, i suppose being gutted is a bit -

what if i write a shuake!filipino au.

Akechi’s pupils are blown out so far they nearly encompass his irises—his gaze is manic, tender. He stares down at Akira with an incomprehensible cocktail of emotions, soft locks of brown hair falling to frame his face. “I hate you,” he whispers, like a prayer. It is as sincere as sincere can be when he’s leaning down in the same breath to rest their foreheads together. Akira is gone. The thrum of a heartbeat is loud in his ears and he can’t tell if it’s his or Akechi’s, if there ever was a difference from the start. All he knows is that in the next heartbeat, Akechi rises from where he’s leaned over and thumbs Akira’s bottom lip, breathing heavily. “I hate you,” he says again, laced with a bitter irony, before sealing their mouths at the seams.

old snippet from my docs

RATTLES MY CAGE .... CLAWS AT THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE ..... OH MY GOD

shuake!college au where goro gets home late and wakes up early and suffers through class and gets home late and wakes up early and hedndjwrkdmgghrah.

ren, in between, gives him kisses on the cheek before everything. "for moral support," he offers.

"i should kill you for real this time," goro says.

mnyeahahah it would be sooo hilarious for a goro kinnie (me) to try roleplaying as ren. haha. so funny.

anyway ehem @crimsontheatre.bsky.social

let me project my college woes onto my scronkles. i'm not even in my thesis term yet. but let me complain

goro: i have acknowledged that something is severely wrong with me and therefore i shall pursue a degree in psychology to better understand myself

also goro, three years later, balls deep in his thesis season: what the fuck is severely wrong with other people

shuake college!au where goro comes home from uni after a long break. ren is cooking when he hears the door open.

"hey, honey," ren says, "how was your first day back?"

goro says nothing, stomps toward their shared bedroom. slams the door.

ren hears muffled screaming not even 5 seconds after.

i will try again after i take another 8-hour nap ...

bsky has not been nice to me. what do you mean it took me 30 minutes to set up my roleplay account. why can i not edit my bio. do you have a vendetta against me

"how was your first day of class?" "please introduce yourself!" "hey! what program are you taking?" no !!!! leave me alone !!!! let me take my nap !!!!

h. hello. should. should i. do i. h

the itch to begin roleplaying again ... how do i. what do i do. should i just. do it? or like. h

the bird app can be so miserable. why did i reinstall ...

vision: ryuji running up to goro and going "ARREST ME DADDY". the next cut is ryuji doing the "uh why you afraid of the grind" dance while goro stands in the background with a very calm smile

hqppy new year. i'm glad i'm still alive and going. may 2026 be kinder to all of you guys out there

would you guys support me, at least...

i'm not a coward i'm just terribly sleepy

what if my first work on ao3 was a five nights at freddy's crackfic between mangle and the marionette. i could just do anything. i could do it right now. but i won't

majority of the mutuals i have here have followed me for akeshuake. what if i post a l&ds xavier/reader fic huh. throwing you for a spin with my cloud strife yumeship

i dislike the fact that i tend to grit my teeth in my sleep why do i do that. why do i subject myself to jaw pain and a headache the first thing in the morning. why

definitely wank and tell (i have never, not once, published anything nsfw in my entire writing career)

"don't make this harder for yourself,"

"you know i can't do that."

"what about me, then?"

"... i can't let you die."

"so you would lie to yourself?"

"i want you, goro," ren's not sure if the tears he tastes are his own, "i'd kill gods to have you again."

mmfghf... shuake... shuake kissing... 2/2... ren stopping goro from walking out of the door... hands clawing at skin and clothes to remember that goro was, is real, and was never an illusion despite everything... a gloved hand wrapped around ren's neck, as if it's about to choke him.... mrghhfgh