Maybe with how I am now, I donβt deserve love because I have all this negativity buried in me.
It eats away at me day by day and I feel hollow and bitter.
I donβt want to die one day and no one will notice or care. I want to feel like Iβve left my mark on people and Iβll be in their hearts.
Was it because I was also in it that bothered people? Or maybe if itβs not shoved in their face then it will go unseen?
Iβm probably overthinking things againβ¦
God, I hate myself at times! I want to believe that my friends love me for me, but my heart aches from nagging doubt.
But then I post that art in the discord server dedicated to all the fanart for them, and the one person that I wanted to see itβ¦ seemingly skips over it like it wasnβt there.
Yet she saw and acknowledged every other fanart piece that was posted.
Like, I pay for fanart with a friend for their anniversary as a streamer and gift tons of subs and bits. I mask a post about it on twitter while tagging them. They see it and thank me for it.
Hell, I even congratulated them on their kudoboard.
At times I wonder⦠do people really care about me or just because I gift them things or get art with them?
Thereβs always these small βthingsβ I keep noticing and I get stuck in my head about them.
There is something wrong with meβ¦
"α΄α΄ΙͺΙ΄ α΄‘ΙͺΚΚ α΄Ι΄ΚΚ Κα΄ α΄Κα΄ κ±α΄α΄Κα΄ α΄κ° Κα΄α΄Κ κ±α΄κ°κ°α΄ΚΙͺΙ΄Ι’~"
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Thanks for being my guardian angel for all these years.
Cheers to you, homie.β€οΈ
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Hereβs view of his ringsπ
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I actually had that dream a week ago.
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We appreciate the boobily
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Ah, yes! But then itβs my turn and I have Aura of Murder and run dual daggers as a Baalspawn :)
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*Has 9 stacks of Unstoppable*
And I love your pfpβ€οΈ
Demolition Duo~
Too hot to handle~
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The boys are back in town~!
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So damn beautiful
