i'm so close to finishing the deck. i have 2 cards left to get before i have them all... I'm just missing 17 and 40, and I'm thinking it might give me the latter as the final one

starting to realize the au event might be the funniest excuse for me to revive the Nitro Circus

this is some iceberg-type shit i cannot believe i still remember that after all this time... maybe i should make a concept thumbnail.....

wrote 2 new SKAI logs and tweaked the 3 older ones. Really hoping i can get the SKAI properly introduced to the channel through SKfaD, though that's still a couple months away.

I have a better understanding of how SKfaD can work now, just need to get content made for it soon...

fuckin around in illustrator, more AU edits inspired by siiva. also wanna do ringtones for these when i get the chance

#AU #Discord #SiIvaGunner

maybe putting my thoughts into words is helping me realize how ridiculous it sounds

this could just be aftershocks of lingering depression and stress. who knows.

i reject algorithms & calling myself a "content creator", but i am still scared of others' judgement of me

such is the way of the worm.

getting the urge to. Draw. again but anxiety about reception is creeping its ugly hands down my neck

the fear of others' reactions will never stop bothering me solely because Those People Don't Know Me. I'm A Stranger To Them. even though this shouldn't be scary to do in the first place

Been having ideas for songs i can work on after the Fell!SMW soundtrack, but my current backlog is looking more and more thin by the day. My last vip goes up tomorrow, then I'll have to post the album on the 19th... i need to get more rips taken care of, fast.

i keep forgetting that excessive amounts of sleep can also make me tired, so every time i wake up drowsy i can't tell if i need more sleep or need to get out of bed already.

i end up sleeping more regardless

had such an emotional day with tomodachi. I dealt with so many crushes and friendships and gifts and dreams and room redecorations and food preferences and

my head is spinning LOL i gotta lay down now... i am in love with this game

still kinda bummed that my hype for balatro died out, i was so confident about getting those card & voucher sprites made and learning how to mod the game... i'm still knee-deep in youtube for the rest of this year, but there's always next year, i guess

You should watch Teeny Toys. Very good Petscop-like series.
youtube.com/@TeenyToysEx...

AAAAAAA IM GONNA MISS DREAMWORLD SO MUCHHHHH I LOVE THIS SERIES TO THE MOON AND BACK ITS SO SO GOOD THAT PREMIERE IS GONNA MAKE ME CRYYYY

2-part finale, next part coming in august... and then that's it...... ouuhhh i need to binge-watch it from the beginning it's just so beautiful i love DreamWorld

this doesn't feel like burnout anymore. i think right now my depression's taken the wheel

i can't stop feeling emotionally miserable, I don't want to do anything important, i'd rather keep distracting myself with other things

maybe it's best to let it keep control until it says it's done

i havent eaten anything ever since i got home and locked in on drawing this. i'm getting something now

whirr.

stayed up all night writing and ended up sleeping from 3:30am to 11:15am. Can't say i don't regret it for my physical health but at the very least I'm enjoying having time like this. It's nice to work on personal things that help me feel better

"You call yourself a god when nobody worships you."
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"You must continue to fight for those you care about."

more error and ink

it's time for april fools part 2

just drew the stupidest thing possible for this next video batch and i am so embarrassed by it

that's how i know it's gonna be good

i hate being jealous of my friends but i also hate how disappointed and frustrated i am with myself

my art is so weak in comparison to theirs and i want to prove i can do better, not be stuck in this cartoony pit

prove to myself i have value to them as much as i say theyre valuable to me

prove it

its why i copy them sometimes, its why i make fanart. I want to learn from them, understand how they create so i can adapt it to my own art. analyze what they do to draw/compose/design so well so i can match their skill level

...i guess i really am living up to the "kirby" part of my name, heheh...

my art is like the equivalent of colouring books, edutainment sites & playing with toys, while my friends' are like college degrees, high-level jobs & triple-a games. i want to prove i can make stuff as cool as theirs but theyve dedicated so much more time to their craft while i keep bumbling around

self-eradication versus self-preservation.

ERROR!Kirb & Ink!Kirb

had a dream that i found proof of Mario Titans existing and it ended up being some cancelled fangame that the leaker stole assets from, so i started rushing to tell ppl about it with old gameplay and trailers i found on yt

i guess im still not over Mario Titans yet lol thanks brain

power went out in the middle of drawing. Hypothesized to be at a major electrical grid near our town, none of the streetlights or neighbors' houses have power either. Should be completed by 2am, but... i definitely should head to bed by now. Shit Happens, i guess.

I have now fully watched every video from SiIva's 2026 April Fools. Adjusting for some awkward downtime i had to deal with, my estimation (without adding the hard numbers of minutes and seconds) would be about 14 hours and 45 minutes.

And i tackled all of it in one sitting.

Incredible event.

went through and updated EVERY page on my site to add [lang="en"] to every [html] tag. was even able to streamline the process so it was easier.

Theres still so many unfinished pages and they'll have to stay that way for now since I'm busy with YouTube, but any progress is good progress.

Really hoping Nintendo keeps doing the trading cards for the next couple weeks or so, I did miss a couple days but i'm currently at 25 out of 40. I don't want it to be a "you get what you get" thing, I wish they'll let us reach full completion...

more horror knight doodles

#SiIvaGunner #HollowKnight #AU

forgot to charge my phone overnight and woke up to it being at 33% 😭 thankfully i was up at 6:40am and plugged it in, it should hit 100% by the time i leave. gotta get to work at 10am today rather than 12pm