It isn’t about whether or not you think you should be doing something. If you get a little knot in your stomach, you feel yourself shudder from how it might be wrong, an uncertainty, a fear…
It’s about whether or not you do it anyways, because you don’t want to disappoint her. Because you know better than trying to disrespect her. Because if you don’t do what she says, if you take a stand, if you show that you won’t break,
You won’t get treated exactly as you feel that you want, somewhere, deep inside your core. How long has that feeling been there? Did she put it there?
She insists she didn’t. Whenever you question her, she’s sure to show you how wrong you are. As many times as it takes. She’s so patient and kind. You hardly register the tickle at the back of your head at that thought, anymore.
Sometimes she feeds you something - you spat it out a few times, but. It feels nice. It makes things softer. It makes it easier. It makes you want more. It makes it easier. It makes things softer. It…
Does it, or is she just telling you it does? Your head is swimming. Isn’t that funny? It makes you giggle. She smiles. You did something right! Euphoria trickles through every nerve.
Playthings deserved to be played with, after all. She’s made you very aware of that fact, by now. So you shudder, and whimper, and whine, and hope…maybe, maybe, she will take that feeling of wrongness away?
Or maybe it will stay so she can break you with it again and again.
The choice isn’t yours. And that fills with such relief that your eyes flutter at the next command you know you will follow. After all, she must know best, right?
cnc + gaslighting + drugging and probably a heap of some hypnotic conditioning in there, somewhere. fun stuff!
#adultwriting #nsfw #cnc #hypnokink #intoxkink