We know we can't live in suburban houses; they are filled with Thatcherite monsters. Where do you go to from utopia?
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We know we can't live in suburban houses; they are filled with Thatcherite monsters. Where do you go to from utopia?
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Throughout our childhood, Claire was my witness, and I was hers.
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Someone nods a head in compassion, because one by one the Adults seem to agree it is difficult being around the Kids. Everybody knows the Kids are now difficult.
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Throughout my childhood I eat this bread, and as an adult, in our French kitchen, I relish it. Heavy wholemeal bread - detested by my partner and daughters is my Proustian madeleine.
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Italo Calvino wrote most things about you.' In our Kitchen, flies buzz over from the plates, but the sticky papers that our over from the ceiling have gone.
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Mao said the Chinese Revolution allowed the people to grasp the essence of the thing'. In any utopian experiment, inhabitants seek unprecedented authenticity, the space to be themselves.
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Talk of solitude... It is the last resort of the civilized: our souls are so creased and soured in meaning we can only unfold them when we are alone.'
Virginia Woolf
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During siesta time, I think of what Jules Michelet says, that we must faire parler, make the silences of history speak.
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God has mercifully ordered that the human brain works slowly; first the blow, hours afterwards the bruise.'
Walter de la Mare, The Return
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But, in the community, our threads have been cut. Each stalk disconnected. No thread can lead us out because our connection with our families and history was broken when our utopia left the past behind.
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The weight of our small differences is ignored. We have broken what Jean Baudrillard called 'the boundary markers' of the symbol known as 'home'. Bang. The Adults repeat: "The Kids are out of control.'
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I am playing devil's advocate, but I think you'd thrive.'
When I said this, there was a sudden small light in his eyes, because another person's belief in our unique potential helps set us free.
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That evening, in our Unit, Alison congratulates me, but then she tells me I'll have to go to the comprehensive because we don't believe in the selective process or class inequality. She doesn't ask me what I want,and there is no discussion. #Crossman24 #HIWWS #HomeIsWhereWeStart
I wonder, if this is what now makes us both a little sauvage, wild-in the French sense, meaning slightly antisocial. For even though I love groups and am a 'people person', in our home, A and I are reclusive.
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When I said this, there was a sudden small light in his eyes, because another person's belief in our unique potential helps set us free.
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At the community, most of the Adults were privately educated. They went to boarding schools, read Homer, played hockey, and ate lunch while speaking French.
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But at school, people call me weird, and it is strange, this solitude, because a child's solitude is a stone. In the palm of your hand, it is insignificant. A stone is a small loneliness, but it contains the history of everything.
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I read for hours. Reading is one of my forms of resistance.
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The clock keeps ticking, and I want time to stop, to abolish all cuckoo clocks, watches, sundials and Big Ben, to erase time from here, erase what has happened, and stop what is to come, stop the past, the present and the future.
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In their bedrooms and the Kitchen, while they gulp sweetened tea, instant coffee and puff on roll-ups, I talk to these men. Some of them are kind, and some are not. For years, they will be my friends. My best friends.
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Our community welcomed Cora inside. As a child it taught me immense tolerance, humanity, and that art, like Cora's extraordinary blankets, is possible everywhere. Yet Cora was also a justification of our way of life.#Crossman24 #HIWWS #HomeIsWhereWeStart
It is difficult when you are a teenager and 25 Adults examine your freshly made- up- for-a-party- face, or you don't want to pretend everything is perfect inside the house.
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In the community, being creative is good but winning is not the right thing, reaching a goal is not the objective. Hierarchy is a bad thing, and if you win you create hierarchy.
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But as I write this, I wonder whether it was enough, or whether it was outweighed by the seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks and months when we were sucked into the group - the glorious, treacherous, beating river of the crowd.
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Over fifteen years, until we leave home, Sunday evenings are the only moment of the week we get to spend together with our mum. At the time it feels sufficient to make us into a family.
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We echo many utopian experiments, like the learnt by Alison, Violet, Eagle, Barbara, Thomas and all the Shakers, or Brook Farm, a nineteenth-century Transcendental utopian community in Massachusetts #Crossman24 #HIWWS #HomeIsWhereWeStart
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Lawrence quotes Martin Luther King, saying that a riot is 'the language of the unheard'. King was not condoning violence, but warning that riots occur when there is a deep injustice that a society or group fails to recognize or hear.
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Above the beach, a seagull flies in the wind, carried by gusts of air. A question haunts me: How to look back wards and go forwards?
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