โ๏ธ๐ #LeatherboundHands back to writing this as a break from #FullofGrace -- and now I can't get back into the rhythm.
Inspired by @sundialgirl.bsky.social, writing out weekly/bi-weekly missives on my long-form writing process as I continue to write #leatherboundhands (EomerxLothiriel novel-length fanfic set just after the war of the ring, exploring the idea of refugees in Middle Earth) and --
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So I guess Eomer is really taken by the vision of Lothiriel that he encounters in his dream (not knowing that ~it was actually Lothiriel~ at that point). Lol. Funny how characters take on a life of their own.
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That's the soul of fandom: the pleasure, maybe singular and distinct, of writing something out simply because you can. I can.
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Reminder to self about how much fun I'm having in the process of figuring out how to write this novel-length fic. It's not popular on AO3, but there's some pleasure in thinking things through, and not a lot of pressure in finding out who it will please outside of myself.
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Yeah, no, it just passed the 7K word mark, so this will be at least 10K words.
I'm 7K words deep into chapter 6. the pleasure here is how it has brought me closer to my own ways of working, my own thinking. #leatherboundhands โ๏ธ๐
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Story about to hit 50,000 words as i write Chapter 6! As Eomer and Lothiriel meet in this chapter, I'm excited to try my hand at writing romance?
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Every story is also a place where I can, not escape, but turn towards for comfort or for rest. Even the writing, which can be a struggle, is also a way to rest my mind against the world.
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The criticism I got that seemed to be the most serious was that the work doesn't *feel* like it belonged in Tolkien's world. Maybe game of thrones, they said. But I guess I was never aiming to sound like Tolkien.
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Received a terrible review! Trying to convince myself that the review doesn't matter. But I know that the answer is back in the work, back in the story, back to the writing.
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I have promised myself a treat after writing tonight! I get to watch Conclave. Chapter 6 feels a bit easier to navigate, and I'm finally writing more Eomer. Let's see how he feels in my brain.
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Still feel myself pulled to continue into chapter 6. The last chapter was a monster -- much too many words. i'll strive for a shorter chapter next (around 5 to 7k)
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Pleasure is difficult for me,I feel like I'm always clenched and ready for a blow. So I'm trying to find way so think against that, feel against that.
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Excited to post this tonight
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Very lightly editing this chapter before I post it to AO3 tomorrow evening. Trying to juggle finishing a book with all the rest of it.
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Almost at the end of the chapter, and then I'll spend a little time revising gently before finally posting it on ao3! I'm really excited. Longest bit of fiction I've written, and I think I can get back to my other novel easier after this.
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Tonight I get to write Lothiriel meeting Eomer! Let's gooo
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Almost at 45,000 words and this chapter isn't finished yet. i think I'll split it and write the next bulk in chapter 6.
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Hirap naman i-describe ang santol. santol!
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Worked on this paragraph last night and this afternoon. Erchirion is the first of Lothiriel's brothers home from the war, and they spend some time catching up over dinner. I try to slip in some Filipino food in each chapter ahahah
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Gently sub-questing as I write out the penultimate perspective in this chapter. I'm writing about refuge-seekers who were displaced, and traveling North, from Hรขrรขd and trying to think about what Lothiriel would have thought of the migration.
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40,000 words! That's amazing! I want to write more tonight -- I wish I could spread out my leaves and toil hours so I can take every Friday off for the rest of the year!
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--but it feels like tweaking and revising will bring it more closely to the shape it wants to take. All of that in good time, though.
I don't know if this is good, but as i write this fanfic, the more i feel drawn to go back to #FullOfGrace, my own novella.
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The more of this novel I write, the less I can see if each individual paragraph is good, but the more the whole emerges. I know that it will take a long while for me to get to the end (it's meant to be 10 chapters long, and I'm only now finishing the halfway mark)--
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I get to write this. I get to sit here and think about these characters (and what i've done to them) and write it out. and i am afraid and terrified.
38K words.
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I'm writing Erchirion arriving in Dol Amroth after the war! And i didn't realize he would have so much he'd want to say??
โ๏ธ๐ #LeatherboundHands But I also want to go through the process of writing it out as much as I can, and learn along the way. In Ch5, Lothiriel finally meets Eomer (across space! across time!) and by Ch6, she will likely arrive at Emyn Arnen.
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Need to set aside some time to edit the first sections of this chapter. Last night, I had a thought about what fanfic readers might expect from #lotr rarefic like Eomer/Lothiriel -- and maybe disappointing that expectation for more character instead of more worldbuilding.
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