#ScreamingIntoTheVoid #MyOwnJourney

#ScreamingIntoTheVoid #MyOwnJourney

It really stinks feeling like this 😑

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Am constantly swinging between excitement, dread and defeat. The house has yet to get to a point where the contract can be signed but we have no idea on the timing of anything! The uncertainty of everything is exhausting!

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So the house we are buying still is miles away now. We are loving the van life but living on someone else’s property is shit. Am currently struggling with how to balance “working” and chilling. The two are linked but getting the concentration to do both is hard!

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I haven’t been keeping up with my posts mainly down to my sleep getting completely fucked with anxiety and stress over our move. Today marks the day we are homeless (living out of a caravan) but still no idea if or when the new house will be done!

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The soon to be new owners have been abusing our kindness. They asked once if they can do some work on the house, they plan to flip it. It been really unpleasant, feels like being invaded. I have been hating every minute of it. Want my privacy back!!!!

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We spent our 1st night in our new caravan, this marks the start of our new journey! Very exciting and really scary. We have no idea when our new home will be ready for us to drive off too. The joys of legal crap!

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The last few days had been interesting. The internal stress of our big move is becoming less a sub conscious to a conscious feeling. My sleep has been all over the place. I think that the emotion (I think!) a mix of excited and slight dread… but I could be wrong

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Been trying to improve my sleep, no sure how other people manage it but there are days/weeks where good sleep is a distant memory. Waking up feeling like I haven’t had much mental rest is … well exhausting. Trying a few apps, tried Pillow but that has yet to yield much results

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I had a full on emotional melt down today. With the move we are getting rid of a lot of things, my electric organ which I have had since I was kid we had planned to bin cause it wasn’t working but when we plugged it in boom!!! I find it interesting the things we are attached to.

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We are planning a huge move. This has been in the works for over 9yrs now and it’s finally happening. Today we bought our caravan where we will be living in for quite a long time. Feel excited and anxious/scared/worried!! Odd mix of emotions

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My relationship with my parents are complex (and that might be putting it mildly), but they are flying to the states and my worry is tangible! I just can’t shake it the feeling that something bad might happen with the plane crashes that have been happening

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I have never been good with conflicts, more importantly when people do things stupid but they don’t want to hear it! Currently trying to figure out how to have the conversation. I have yet to master the art of telling someone they really shouldn’t!

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I remember when coming home felt like entering a war zone and keeping my head down was the best option to not get a beating. The world is starting to feel like that and it is getting harder to know how to stay safe.

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I had as a child often contemplated why I thought the thoughts I thought. This would keep me up at nights wondering if one day I would not be me anymore! Recently looking back at my life I have to say that recently I definitely don’t think like I once’s did. Mmm…

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I have been working in the field of “AI” since the early 2000’s and often think about posting on Social media about my thoughts but the inner monologue goes something like “You have no idea what you are talking about you imposter!” It’s a daily struggle to believe in myself

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Me screaming into the void

Sometimes I find screaming into the void is such a release. For the past few months I have been going on a journey to tackle my own mental health and to try understand who I am... what a journey.
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