Estinien personally takes Mata on- as he's sees more of Mata can do even when he was the path of avenging his family during ARR to HW.
Mata slowly comes out herself with showing love to him as he's more than a friend to her- a part of her family.
#Wolstinien #Negistinien #Estimata #Negimatalore
Mata built a persona of strength with smiles to lead/motivate herself before and during her journey- leading to not fully express herself.
She would think she would be difficult to love and care for as to her- there were so many and pressuring important matters than her own well being.
#Negimatalore
Such ramblings to herself- she would may deny as she, Mata, has averted herself from non-platonic affections ever since she became an adventurer.
It's really the use of action/touch from those she trusts that allow her to become the warm and welcoming individual she's today.
#Negimatalore
Mata has a soft spot for fluffy things.
She adores Karakul (their wool and their meat) from a young age due to her family's tavern business with trade.
The Moogles and their Cloud Mallows are also on her favorite fluffy list.
#Negimatalore
It was later on: Mata embraced being herself.
Away from binding or restricting.
Loving herself as she realized there others who dearly care for her well being and genuinely like her.
Loving her kindness and pure heart to protect- which they vow to be her lance in return.
#Negimatalore #Negimata
For sometime, Mata had regarded herself as almost no gender- as jobs don't care what you are.
Mata only initially worked as an adventurer for money to payoff her family's debt, but deep inside: Mata wanted to be free and adventure as she please.
#Negimatalore #Negimata
Mata knows she is strong, but for what she had been given to use and wear weren't to her standards.
The Drachen armor did look cool- yet she pathetically almost died within it as she didn't address the problem:
she couldn't breathe with even her chest binder.
#Negimatalore #Negimata
ARR-HW Era Negimata Haloxicon Having low esteem thoughts with PTSD DON'T LOOK AT ME. PRETTY?? HANDSOME?? I'M NEITHER. I'M NOT WORTHY. DON'T TOUCH ME.
In Mata's days of ARR and HW, she had always tried to hide her large chest and always try to downplay her looks in order to avoid attraction.
Mata finds Conjurer outfits weren't restricting unlike the Drachen armor as it was too tight.
She only wanted no funny business.
#Negimata #Negimatalore #art
Mata has had been a hungry gal since as a little kitten, then was disciplined to not constantly eat/bite when she entered ladyhood. Til she was adventuring and older, she'd discovered how delicious with seeing Estinien's neck being bare in EW and like to bite & be bitten by him.
#nsfw #Negimatalore
Mata blushes whenever she is genuinely praised, cared for (though she doesn't ask for it), eating her favorite foods, and looking at and standing byEstinien.
Also thanks to Krile and Tataru pointing out Mata's attraction to him, Mata slowly realizes her love for him.
#Negimatalore
Mata has been mostly obliviously due to self-detaching her emotions and suitors away from adventure/work.
It takes physically/mentally saving her with certain appeal to seduce her.
On the other hand, her sweetness and wearing whatever she likes actually attract a lot of people.
#nsfw #Negimatalore
Mata has came a long way to avoid sex due to past abuse in early life to being comfortable with doing it. She does it for bonding and self-enjoyment (relief) with her only partner, Estinien.
She's particularly curious in trying new ways from a tome to spice up in loving him.
#Negimatalore #nsfw
Her gift to heal and connection to the elementals were feared- so her Mom strongly wanted her to stay only to the bow just to protect her. It took several years and a calamity for Mata to leave her clan home, to become a conjurer/lancer instead of an archer (defying her tradition.)
#Negimatalore
2025 YCH Commission Estinien gets his hair tied up by Mata
Much thanks to @memmims.bsky.social for taking in my YCH request!
This comm shows very well of Mata her way of loving her dear partner-by fixing his hair.
Estinien had refused her from touching it long before, but now- he doesn't mind.💙
#ffxivart #Estimata #Negistinien #Wolstinien #Negimatalore
2025 Letter Commission of Estinien wishing Mata a Happy Nameday
@nastvrtiums.etheirys.social's letter comm was a Birthday gift special 💗💙🎂
They wrote a comfy letter of Estinien wishing Mata a Happy Nameday.
A piece of #Wolstinien lore as part of their 'yearning & growing' relationship.
@Wormprint Vgen
#ffxivfanfic #Estimata #Negistinien #fanfic #Negimatalore
#Negimatalore Context:
Mata's father was a miqo'te with sliver hair, tan skin, and a lancer, too.
As a kitten, she loved her papa and wanted to marry him as she loved him so much.
In her teens, she was heartbroken by her papa leaving and crush- she vowed to not 'love' again til she met Estinien.
Mata does and personally likes to go out their way to gather for all of the ingredients. Although with a cooking exp predating her adventurer days, she's an legit Culinarian and making food is part of her love language for herself and others.
Her preferred dish to make are baked pies.
#Negimatalore
It's been a long journey for Mata to become more comfortable with her body and self confidence. She hid her large chest and curves with bulky/comfy clothes for awhile- til later after the visiting the 1st, she's shows way more skin starting as she'd felt restrained for too long.
#Negimatalore
Mata has had conflicting yet minor feelings towards Haurchefaunt and Ysayle. She never went onto the step after being friends as she simply wanted a family/friend instead of romance at the time.
#Negimatalore
This was right before Stormblood released in 2017.
In about less than 2 years- it would be about 10 years of playing XIV.
Negimata Haloxicon (Mata's initial name), my first XIV character- was created on June 2nd, 2017.
#xivqotd #wolqotd #Negimatalore
Mata does not prefer the linkpearl (she isn't a fan of earrings due to her family).
Another reason why Mata likes letters- she is a part-time post woman and the Moogles, who love her- will find a way.
Much to his irritation, Estinien gets over it w/ sending his written words.
#wolqotd #Negimatalore
Mata tried to stay in contact with Estinien with letters although she rathers be more direct in-person to express herself to him.
It was actually Estinien who helped started sending a letter to her (thanks to Tataru's advice as Mata personally likes getting them).
#wolqotd #Negimatalore
LRP I am reminded of Estinien's disdain towards Moogles.. and Mata's affinity with Moogles (due to her being a Twelveswood born White Mage, a part-time Postwoman, and fluffy/cute things).
Later in their dating, Estinien later accepts her connection with them.
#Negimatalore #Negistinien #Estimata
Mata has had slept at 1 or 9.
In her time in Tural (the climate is really humid)- she goes 20 especially when Estinien is around.
:3c
#Negimatalore #wolqotd
Mata had tried to step up as the elder to her young siblings, while managing the tavern. However, Mata's grandmother stepped in to take over after the calamity and letting Mata go become an adventurer. The biggest condition for her is to send 70% of earnings back home.
#Wolqotd #Negimatalore
Mata was the 1st born and in line to become head of the clan and their tavern business. Her home was once financially stable til after years after her young sis was born before the calamity. Her parents split due to her mom gambling and dad disappearing- forcing Mata to lead.
#Wolqotd #Negimatalore
The two become closer friends/family after Dragonsong. She gave her first kiss on his cheek when he woke up in the infirmary as a familial social greeting of acceptance.
Mata, whom has locked away a side of herself tied to family- dramatically broken by him.
#Negistinien #Estimata #Negimatalore
Mata calls her situation of coming into terms on the levels/steps to loving Estinien and her own as " internally silly and so stupid.
She asks herself- "Is she worth being accepted for who she is?"
And yet Estinien stood up for her.
#Negistinien #Estimata #Negimatalore
During HW, she gradually opened herself after Estinien taking a stand for her even if she didn't ask for it (she always tried to put a front)- he stated that she was not a weapon of mass destruction.
In her mind- still denying herself of personal love-
#Negistinien #Estimata #Negimatalore
Estinien and Mata's relationship was not automatically romantic at the start. Mata herself, misunderstood of Estinien's off putting personality and denies of any affection toward him. She found herself a fool and frustrated to eventually like him.
#Negistinien #Estimata #Negimatalore
