An unfinished self portrait in two unfinished styles, one vert illustrative, on very painterly. Neither is finished. Bith look exactly like me yet I do not see myself in either. Not my gender, not my body, not my personhood. My face is a stranger to me. A cruel reminder that my reality is subjective and the true "me" does not physically exist in this reality. I'm having really bad artblock. It isn't better. I feel alone. You're not here with me. No one exists here save myself, and I am just a thought.

Searching for myself and finding nothing. I am nothing. A self portrait of the thing that stares at me through the mirror.
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