a cartoon drawing of a white dog with an angry look on its face Alt: ( ID: "Chou Chou" from One Piece, staring down his enemy with a determined look on his face. )

Was not expecting Chou Chou...

Started bawling my eyes out, because he reminded me of my lil'Pabu.

JFC Oda, you don't hold back...

#onepiece #fighterspirit #thepabutag #dogsarebetterthanpeople

Once again, thinking about my baby boy.

I miss you, Pabu.

Momma loves you so much.

#depression #insomnia #thepabutag

( ID: A small, brown and white Jack Russel Terrier curled up on a mount of blankets. He has his paws tucked against his chest, and his tail curled up between his legs. He's sleeping soundly. )

I miss my baby boy.. 💜

#thepabutag #dog #seniordog #imissyoubabyboi #dogsofbsky

( ID: A cozy set up, with an urn adorned with several keepsakes from a beloved companion. The image above is a Jack Russel Terrier, surrounded by autumn leaves. Below are a half chewed on dog bone, his wrapped up leash and harness. His winter hat that says "Dream team", a polaroid picture of the precious dog and a lamb chop toy. Along with a paper towel tube he enjoyed playing with. )

My boy has come home..

It's been a rough couple of days, that just blended together into a mess of tears, quiet solitude and acceptance over the whole situation. Not something I ever thought I'd have to do..

#thepabutag #fuckcancer #dogsarethebestpeople #dogsofbluesky

Slept until 1 in the afternoon...

Didn't realize how exhausted I really was. It's day 4. I don't really feel like crying, but the twinge in my chest is still there and I keep looking over to where he used to sleep.

I'm adjusting, but it still sucks.

#grief #thepabutag #depression #fuckcancer

( ID: He left in a way that made him unfamiliar to me. I don't know the person that left me. I miss the boy that loved me and wanted all my tomorrows. )

( ID: A little fluffy, brown and white Jack Russel Terrier sleeping soundly propped up against a mound of plush pillows with one paw raised up. )

I miss you, my sweet boy.

But I know you're safe and finally at peace.

#thepabutag #dog #fuckcancer #healing

My Tribute to Pabu 💜

#thepabutag #myboy #goodnightsweetprince #fuckcancer

February 2nd, 2026

5:24pm, he took his last breath in my arms.

My Fiancée and I were with him until the end.

They'll never be another dog like him.

#thepabutag #loss

( ID: A little, fluffy Brown and White Jack Russel Terrier sits on a bright orange blanket. He stares into the camera, looking tired. )

My precious boy.

I'm going to miss you so much..

#thepabutag #dog #fuckcancer #depression

( ID: A little fluffy, brown and white Jack Russel Terrier flipped onto his side, with his mouth open. He's in a playful mood. )

Goodbye, my precious boy..

When my Fiancée woke up, she started immediately cuddling and taking pictures of him. He was rolling around on his pillows, "chuffing" and wiggling. It was super cute.

I'm going to miss waking up to him.

#fuckcancer #depression #grief #loss #depression #thepabutag

Switched back to my black piercings.

Tomorrow is when we take Pabu up to the vet and put him to sleep.

As of now. I'm in mourning.

#fuckcancer #depression #thepabutag

( ID: A person sleeps cuddled up with their dog, on a couch under a bright orange blanket.)

I love you, Pabu.

#thepabutag #grief #loss #depression #fuckcancer #dog

In just a few days, I'll be saying goodbye to the longest relationship I've ever had.

This hasn't been easy to sit with - nor admit that how distraught I feel over the entire situation.

#fuckcancer #thepabutag #grief #loss #death #depression #dog

( ID: Someone is holding up a stuffed toy w/a squeaker inside that says: "It's my birthday" on it. )

Yesterday was his 11th Birthday, but we had a celebration today..

We ordered his last stuffed toy ever.

#fuckcancer #grief #acceptance #depression #thepabutag #cancer #seniordog #birthdayboy #thepabutag

Another night of #insomnia, due to me being fearful of something happening to Pabu while we're asleep. I've been staying up at night, checking on him periodically to ensure he has enough water at night. ( His meds make him thirsty. )

#fuckcancer #thepabutag #seniordog #dog #depression

( ID: A small brown and white dog lies across a person's blue emoji pajama-covered legs. The person is gently petting the tired dog. )

Life Update..

His health is taking a turn and it's not looking good. We finally made the decision.

...we picked a date to put him down.
I'm sorry buddy...

It'll be sometime in March. We have to make preparations and figure things out.

#fuckcancer #dog #grief #loss #depression #thepabutag

( ID: A person with short dark hair and glasses lovingly cradles a small tan and white dog. )

I love my little man so much.

#thepabutag #dog #grief #fuckcancer #depression

( ID: An Elderly dog in a festive red and green Christmas sweater lays curled up on a brown and white patterned cow blanket.)

My old man, all bundled up in his "winter wear" after a nice walk.

It's in the 50's here, so per the vet and my anxiety, I got him all trussed up in warm gear. ( He was not happy about the hat, but his little ears need to be protected. )

#thepabutag #dog #elderlydog #seniordog

An hour of sleep, before being woken up to Pabu having an accident.

It's not his fault, the poor dog has been through a rigorous amount of meds, and a previous surgery. In addition to being ten years old - so he's a tad overwhelmed.

Which I understand.

#thepabutag #depression #grief #loss

( ID: A small, fluffy dog cuddles a large plush toy on a dark, cozy blanket. )

( ID: A small brown and white dog cuddles with a large plush toy on a dark blue blanket. )

My precious little guy, all tucked up with my Fiancé's weighted stuffed animal - he was having a really rough morning and he kept wanting to cuddle with it.

I love you so much, Buddy boy.

#thepabutag #seniordog #dogsky #mydog

Having a rough day - Pabu was up all night having accidents and I've been monitoring him. The vet said this would happen after his surgery.

He's fully healed, but his bottom will never be what it was.

I'm just tired. He's tired.

#depressionsky #insomniasky #thepabutag

Trying my best to sort through some feelings right now - everything is just a lot to deal with.

It doesn't help that I'm watching my best friend slowly die from the illness that took my Dad.

I'm tired.

#depressionsky #thepabutag #fuckcancer

Pabu got his first dose of Amitriptyline last night, (yes, it's vet prescribed) it was nerve wracking. I stayed up late to monitor him - and see what affects the medicine would have on him.

But nothing bad happened, he slept quite deeply.

#thepabutag #seniordog #dogsky

( ID: A small dog on a leash, wearing a colorful rainbow wig and a pink harness, stands on a speckled floor. )

Well, we have some good news folks!

#thepabutag #dogsky #mydog #seniordog #healthupdate #goodnews

( ID: A small dog with floppy ears, wrapped in a white comforter, lies next to a glowing computer mouse on a bed. )

How I'm spending the day, as this could be my last weekend with him.

We go to the vet tomorrow and he'll be accessed - I am preparing for the worst as I don't know how much time we have left together.

I love you, puba.

#thepabutag #fuckcancer #depression #grief #dog

Pabu's vet appointment is on the 30th, I should know after that if I need to put him down.

I'm not at all looking forward to this. Been sitting in the dark a lot when everyone's sleeping, just thinking about life and trying to work through my emotions.

#grief #thepabutag #mydog #fuckcancer

( ID: A small dog with a brown and white coat is peacefully sleeping on a soft blanket, cuddling a plush toy. )

He loves cuddling his "Lamby Lamb".

#thepabutag #dogsky #doggo #mydog #seniordog

It's happening again - and I don't know how to handle it.
My Dog, someone that is far more than just a pet - he's been my companion and friend for ten years has cancer. He's dying in a similar manner that my Father did when his Cancer reached Stage 4.

#thepabutag #dogsky #fuckcancer #dog

Person wearing glasses and headphones sits indoors with a dog on their lap. They have piercings, a necklace, and appear relaxed. Dim, cozy lighting.

It's been storming here on and off lately, so this has become the norm - especially while my Fiancé is at work.

Neuropathy aside, I cannot feel my legs...

#comfort #emotionalsupportanimal #depression #disabled #fibromyalgia #thepabutag #dog #doggo #seniordog #elderlydog

Our Vet has given him maybe a year left, due to complications from his cancer. It's advanced, and the only thing she said that we could do is "make him comfortable"..

#fuckcancer #thepabutag #dog #depression #mydog