Huh... it's weird when you realize you stopped doing something you thought you never would. It's like they're so far back in my bittersweet memories that their existence just doesnt occur to me anymore. So many good stories that feel empty now. Huh...
Cuz that version of you that this other person has, like it or not... is also part of you. It's a facet of yourself that you showed them. And if it's a part of you that makes you feel some kinda way, learn about it.
This doesn't mean you have to go tiptoeing around life so that you'll never hurt someone again, that's not possible.
But it does mean that you have to look at the version of yourself this person now has of you, reflect on that version of you, and learn to accept them.
You/I can't be everyone's ideal person, and that's okay.
Everyone hurts people, some more than others. And you/I Have hurt people.
You didn't do it intentionally, but as you know, intention doesn't desolve results. And the result is you hurt someone you cared about.
Other descriptors for me as well.
The negative versions of me that people have IS my own fault; my words, my decisions, my actions cultivated their interpretation of me.
Sometimes they let me stay around long enough to metamorphose into a positive influence. Others don't.
And that's okay.
I've been thinking about versions of oneself lately.
How every single person you've ever met has different version of you in their head based on the time you knew them and your interactions.
Some people think i'm a d*ck.
Some people think i'm a creep.
Some think i'm a blessing.
And others have
Feeling pain is the only way i know how to be forgiven. Im slowly forgetting that, but it's hard..
God this hurts so bad but i Need to feel it if i'm to change.
Déjà vu. This has happened before.
This what you do to me. This what I let happen to me.
Over and over again.
Because this is love, isn't it?
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(1/8) I once heard someone say wise words, that in reality there is not just one of us. That there are as many versions of us as there are those who have come to know us.
When we think about this, it's true. Others may have distant or negative view from us. To others, we may become so very dear.
(8/8) But we are not the version they came to know. Not anymore. And we should never feel sorry about that again.
Has anyone wanted you to be someone other than who you truly are?
Say it with me:
I am allowed to express my emotions however, whenever and wherever i choose. These emotions are mine and they are worthy of being seen and heard.
These are so cool dude, i love seeing them in my feed.
"Like i'm sitting patiently while you decide if i'm worth returning to."
Fuck.
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I'm proud of myself for finding the root & name of tonight's emotional issues & proud of myself for being able to bring my energy level down because of that
& de-overstimulate myself
But now i have to sort through and process the betrayal-turned- mourning and heal from this tiny facet of heartbreak
I'm mad that he is who i Want to be. Someone worthy of being called her friend and keeping her trust.
I'm mad that i failed to be who i said i was gonna be and someone else is filling that role now with 0 effort.
I tried my hardest for the fucking WORLD and hers and i STILL failed.
I know i wasnt replaced cuz the love you have with a person is unique to That Person and you cant have that kind of love with Anybody else
I guess my hubris was believng that our connection was SO special it would never break.
I forget how strong i am.
I need to do better at regulating it.
How can they take such deep, passionate feelings that they had only for me and IMMEDIATELY give those feelings to someone else like changing a hat?
How are deep feelings like that supposed to mean anything if the people they're meant for are so interchangeable?
by someone who Said they loved me so much.
I just don't know.
Feelings are complicated. Knowledge that contradicts feelings are hard.
I'm angry and hurt and sad and weirdly kinda at peace with the situation at the same time.
I guess i'm also just confused.
I guess my biggest issue rn is that i was replaced before i was even let go.
I always knew that if my friend ever came back & decided to leave again it would be easier the second time around, but it unsettles me how Easy it was to do so.
I'm still in conflict with the angry betrayal i feel & my forgiving of the betrayal cuz i understand Why it happened, but...
Idk...
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Your Cherokee words for today.
The top word is English followed by how it is written in the Cherokee language followed by how it is spelled in English then how to pronounce it phonetically.
ooh-tluh-yee-day-dee
This video is so good for introspection; i've been listening to it everyday
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It's important to listen to lessons like these in two ways; one as the giver and one as the receiver. The more perspectives you consider the more you grow.
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You cant have a conversation with someone who refuses to listen. If they do such a good job and she believes they did, ask her if she'd let them do the rest of her house the exact same way.
Reminder:
You make the best and most out of everything that comes your way.
When you're feeling overwhelmed, you give yourself space to stop and breathe.
You have the strength to handle anything that comes your way.
You can overcome this.
Your potential to succeed is infinite.
I'm proud of you
